三地饅頭的時刻

小R，小T和我，在我們program裏被稱為三頭怪，因為老是混在一起，不管是嚴肅的工作還是歇斯底裏的惡作劇，隻要有其中一個人，另外兩個人肯定有份。從intern一起成長起來，我們在一起相處的時間，比和各自家人在一起的時間還要多，這份難能可貴的友誼，是我在這個residency最大的收獲。

昨天小R出夜班，我等著她一起去逛街，我們好久沒有逛街了，而我今天又要踏上去外州麵試的旅程。結果她一直忙到下午，去的時候點都關門了。我們就吃了晚飯然後開車回家。兩個人都累了，小R突然放了這張CD，我的眼淚不知怎麽就流下來了。

intern的時候，我們一起去芝加哥過周末，一起去蒙大拿滑雪，一起去看每一場新電影，一起度過每一個節日。去年情人節的時候，我給她們一人買了一張CD，edge of love。夏天的時候我們做完了intern，一起開車去芝加哥玩，車上就放著這張CD，聽了好多好多遍。那天天氣很好，車在lakeshore飛馳，白帆點點。我們對第二年的住院醫生活充滿著憧憬。

但是我們誰都沒想到，第二年再也沒有那麽多時間在一起了。要做很多night float，然後各自開始準備申請fellow，找rotation, 忙著考試。鐵打的營盤流水的兵，我們才認識一年多卻又要為各自的將來奔波了。

時間如此飛逝，上一次聽這首歌竟然已經是大半年前了。人生如此飛快，忙碌的間隙一抬頭，匆匆由過去了一大段。明年夏天，我們就要分開，追隨自己的生活，那些歡笑和眼淚，頃刻成為回憶。

今天早上四點就起床了，要去趕飛機麵試。爸爸媽媽都起床，給我做早飯，我早已習慣了這種奔波的生活，幾十分鍾就搞定了行裝。但是媽媽就要擔心我開車，擔心機場停車，擔心下雪，擔心衣服不夠，要一樣樣地安慰她。心裏很難過，因為連著兩個麵試，不能回來過來大年夜。我把他們接來就是希望一起過春節，誰知道還是不能如願！他們在上海，沒有我至少還有親戚朋友，但是來了這裏，竟然為了我要孤孤單單地過這個除夕。開車倒出車庫的時候，不敢看他們朝我揮手的樣子，雨霧中，我的眼睛也早已模糊。

朋友總說我寫文章太過三地饅頭（sentimental），在海外漂泊的我們啊，誰心中沒有這樣三地饅頭的時刻。

[落花飄零]

恩，這個周末休息，不散地饅頭了，帶爸爸媽媽出去玩，嗬嗬。
RCT，我博克放過很多背景音樂，我實在記不起來了，我猜是馬友友的大提琴？因為我那段時間一直在聽Yo-Yo Ma Plays Ennio Morricone CD。你可以搜索以下看看是不是你找的。不好意思。

[yayayoyo]

上個月送走了爸爸媽媽，很理解你的感受。好好享受跟爸爸媽媽在一起的時間，好好過一個元宵節吧。

[Ruby@Cuisine]

別sentimental了，讓人看了心疼。今過節，多和爸媽聊聊，自己心情也會好的。工作壓力大，如果情緒上再sentimental，很容易老得啦。吃點巧克力……

[RCT]

新年好！落花，你的博客是我文學城裏必去的地方，感謝你對生活和從醫經曆的分享。
我最近對大提琴曲有興趣，記得在你的博客裏聽到過一段很優美的曲子，不知能否麻煩你告訴一下曲名和演奏者，哪裏可以下載。多謝！

[punny]

落花，健康最重要哦，別硬撐。工作忙，就爭分奪秒的休息，快點把那些不受歡迎的virus都趕跑。恩，上周末我也在機場被堵著呢，北方的天氣真是很糟糕

[落花飄零]

謝謝大家的鼓勵，麵試回來馬上進了ICU，所以到現在才上來回留言。麵試不是很理想，就想找對象一樣，人家看上的我看不上，我看得上人家又似乎有心上人了。而且北方天氣不好，堵在機場若幹次，catch virus若幹，還要發著燒值班收病人，然後回家偷偷吃泰諾不敢讓爸爸媽媽看到，怕他們擔心。最難過的是錯過了新年，覺得不值得，oh well.不去嚐試是不會死心的。
紫砂壺，我做的是內科，你這個fellowship太厲害了，我全然不敢問津阿，嗬嗬，不過謝謝你啦。

[縱然平行]

I’d like to make a correction to set the record straight. The CD I got was “Celtic Woman” from Celtic Woman rather “A New Journey” which I brought it myself later because I was enthralled by the group’s music after listening. Sorry for the mess-up (-: .

BTW, Happy Chinese New Year! The year of Rat, hmm .. that doesn’t sound too good -:) Anyway, raise the glass for prosperity and peace.

[一程歌]

Good Luck!!!

[AppleFlower]

Good luck on your interviews! You're such a kind and dedicated doctor, any program would be lucky to have you. :)

[縱然平行]

Please don’t be too critical on yourself. The simple truth is that you are female, and it is one of your entitlements to clinch over rich sentiments when mood strikes. It seems to me that expressing in appropriate setting toward right person(s) , females may, in fact, entrust their emotional intelligence to the state of mind for demonstrating personal best. On the contrast, you or some of your peers might label us or complain about us as the dull, impassive and insensitive species that are born with the flaw of feeling-deficiency -:).

Years ago if I read this posting I’d have laughed about you for falling for Mindy Smith’s voice or her songs because she is one who sings the country music time to time. But, time does change “landscapes” , sometimes it could even make them beyond recognition. In Oct. 2006 Emma, my ex GF, mailed me a gift package for my 30th birthday from London. In it there were several CDs and one of books from my favorite author. Among these CDs, there were two albums from Mindy Smith (“One More Moment” and “Long Island Shores”), one from Corrs (“Home”) and other one from Celtic Women (“A New Journey”). On the birthday card she went on, asking me to listen to these CDs when I had time. Reluctantly, I did.
Since then on, one thing has become remarkable that more than ever, I feel obliged to understand and appreciate females’ emotional world better as whole in addition to their physical appearances. As a result of the process, I started enjoying music made from Chloë Agnew, Andrea Corr, Lisa Hannigan, Dolores O'Riordan, Órla Fallon, Méav Ní Mhaolchatha, Lisa Kelly, Máiréad Julie Feeney, Nesbitt, , Hayley Westenra, a New Zealand soprano with Irish heritage. As the matter of fact, I’ve started to believe that they might be the vocal artists who have more talents and trainings than many popular American Pop singers per se. So that when I jog in the darkness of frozen winter mornings, or play games on Wii, PS3 or Xbox, or particularly after a turbulence market days, I’d put on CDs that Emma gave to me and listen, letting the voices to take me to the place where summer rain falls on the grass softly, releasing aromatic notes from the earth; where morning light lifts the shade of night, bringing up a new day...

About the possibility that you may get estranged from your parents on Chinese New Year Eve please look bright side; at least you have parents with you in US at this moment. Most of us may not be as lucky as you, so to speak. However, I do hope you get back home on time with your folks.

P.S Thanks for your well-wish over my trip back to China a while ago. For two weeks I had incredible good time with my parents and grandparents except they tried to fatten me with a parade of delicious dishes -:).

[punny]

落花，給你一個big hug，理解你的三地饅頭，加油！

[隨意簡單]

祝你旅途順利，麵試成功，早日拿到理想的offer

[memoryrong]

Good luck on your interview. And Happy Chinese New Year!

[紫砂壺]

Will you be interested in Cardiothoracic Anesthesiology Fellowship? Our Associate Program Director is a very nice guy.

[dreamcatcher123]

落花妹妹，很喜歡這首歌，一直關注你的博客，我才開始我的USMLE考試之路，你已經奔向下一個目標，繼續寫下去，我相信你會激勵好多人。