五九 姐弟之間

靄青知道她無法接受喬治的這份熱情，老美麽，三分鍾熱乎，她向喬治鞠了躬感謝。

喬治並沒有善罷甘休，和凱文琳琳串通好了，琳琳晚上開開收音機，喬治在電台裏把歌獻給他心愛的女孩。

Hello by Lionel Richie

I've been alone with you inside my mind

And in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times

I sometimes see you pass outside my door

Hello, is it me you're looking for?

I can see it in your eyes

I can see it in your smile

You're all I've ever wanted, and my arms are open wide

'Cause you know just what to say

And you know just what to do

And I want to tell you so much, I love you

I long to see the sunlight in your hair

And tell you time and time again how much I care

Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow

Hello, I've just got to let you know

'Cause I wonder where you are

And I wonder what you do

Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you

Tell me how to win your heart

For I haven't got a clue

But let me start by saying, I love you

Hello, is it me you're looking for

'Cause I wonder where you are

And I wonder what you do

Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?

Tell me how to win your heart

For I haven't got a clue

But let me start by saying I love you

“琳琳，我和喬治不是一樣的人。”靄青關上收音機，“你想留在美國，你有你的公司，你的事業，你的凱文。我不行，我還有一年就要回國，你別亂拉郎配。”

“那你和周偉雄呢？”琳琳一臉的不以為然。

“老周不一樣，他，他到底是華人，我們想的差不多，吃的差不多。他也不想留下來，沒準兒跟我回去發展呢。國內機會很多啊。”

“哎喲我的靄青姐姐，你戀愛為什麽？”

靄青一時不知如何回答，她為什麽？她似乎沒有戀愛過，像琳琳和凱文那樣的戀愛過，他們倆在一起，眼中隻有對方，充滿著愛意，而她自己呢？甭管是齊磊還是周偉雄，都是在計算，是不是合適，家庭，學曆，身高，長相，等等。

她不知道什麽是戀愛。

“我知道你需要什麽。”琳琳又打開收音機，“我來給你點個歌。”

琳琳一個電話打給值班的喬治，“下一個是給你的。”

收音機裏響起喬治的聲音，“這是琳琳為她的好朋友點的歌兒，她希望靄青在尋找愛情的路上更加勇敢，遇到自己的幸福，不要退縮。下麵是 Listen to your heart By Roxette 傾聽你心。靄青，希望你能聽到。”

 I know there's something in the wake of your smile

I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea

You've built a love but that love falls apart

Your little piece of heaven turns too dark

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you

Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do

I don't know where you're going and I don't know why

But listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile

The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea

They're swept away and nothing is what is seems

The feeling of belonging to your dreams

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you

Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do

I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,

But listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye

And there are voices that want to be heard

So much to mention but you can't find the words

The sense of magic, the beauty that's been

When love was wilder than the wind

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you

Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do

I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,

But listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye

靄青聽到了自己的心聲，喬治說遇到自己的幸福，不要退縮。她想起在電台播音室裏，喬治為她點歌時的眼神，和他那句話，為那個不知何處等候，會帶給她幸福的人。

理智，或者是多年的教育，還是讓靄青說了不字，“琳琳，謝謝。”

。。。。。。

“姐，”靄輝到了加拿大以後，幾乎每天一個電話，至少一個，“你猜我今天遇見誰了？”

“誰？”靄青漫不經意地問。

靄青和弟弟關係不是很親近，小時候打架，媽媽都是偏向弟弟，不打架時，弟弟也是最受寵的那個，弟弟吃麵我喝的湯啊，靄青沒有小白菜那麽慘，偶爾幾次，真的覺得自己不是媽媽親生的一樣。

“她叫董雨馨，我在雅思班上的同學，你說巧不巧？”

“喔。”

“姐，那可是個大美女，我想我喜歡上她了。”

“好啊。”

“那個，她也在布魯克，你借我點錢吧。”

“什麽？你說什麽？”

“媽說讓我找你。”

“媽沒跟我說。”

“姐，不多，就三千。”

“你要借這麽多錢幹嘛？你出國沒帶錢嗎？”

“我現在和人合租，泡妞多不方便，所以想搬到一個獨立公寓去。三千是押金，我又不花錢，到時候還給你。”

靄青搖搖頭，她還住在地下室裏，和琳琳合租，靄輝為了泡妞張口就是三千，她哪裏有錢借給他。

而且靄青清楚的很，這錢是肉包子打狗，“靄輝，我沒那麽多錢，”

“有多少？”靄輝馬上追問。

“五百吧。”

“別逗了，五百哪夠？三千不成，兩千吧。”

“靄輝，”

“姐，就這麽定了。哎，你看了齊磊的畢業論文了嗎？”

“什麽？”這突如其來的一句話，靄青沒反應過來。她沒有特意向全家宣布和齊磊分手，媽媽的信裏除了靄輝這靄輝那之外，別無其它。靄青以為齊磊自己向媽媽講清楚了。

“姐夫說他畢業論文改了好多，最後定稿叫做《去美國影響論》。他給我發過來，我還沒來得及看呢。”

去美影響論？出去美國影響，這太是齊磊了，他臨時改變了畢業論文的主題，大概是因為美國之行，沒準是因為靄青和他斷絕了關係的緣故。

他曾經說過他的畢業論文是要論述美國的現代史，用來借鑒，對中國將來的發展有利的經驗。

那個時候還都是從正麵論述的。

現在這個題目，靄青從題目來猜測內容，估計不會是正麵題材吧。