最愛(十五)

女人在經曆過一段長時間的感情空窗期後,通常都會變得比較脆弱心軟;不自覺的會產生渴望找尋新的慰藉和情感寄托的心態.

當身邊一旦出現了各方麵條件都相當優越的男性而偏偏這個男性又對自己窮追不舍一往情深時,縱使心裏知道兩人的性格,興趣,人生觀,價值觀等都南轅北轍,若是勉強在一起日後也不易白頭到老,還是會忍不住想要跳下去試試看.

一方麵不斷催眠自己不要相信自己的直覺可能不見得準確;另一方麵又會相信自己有化腐朽為神奇的能力,讓男人為了自己而改頭換麵再世為人!

畢竟各方麵條件都是A+的男人巳算是稀有動物,但凡是女人就很難能抵擋住這麽強大的誘惑力,多半還是會選擇飛蛾撲火的方式為愛情殉葬,就好似子沂的處境一般.

子沂心裏明白以Brian的條件,多少美麗聰慧感性優秀的女子都會爭先恐後的送上門來試探他,勾引他而Brian也不可能心如止水,坐懷不亂.就算拒絕的了九次,第十次也難保不中招.

為了怕自己再次陷入感情的背叛和欺瞞之中痛不欲生,這回子沂小心翼翼地不敢輕易再放下感情了,總是不斷地提醒自己要如行車準則:保持距離,以測安全!千萬不能一鼓兒腦又義無反顧地栽了進去,結果落得個死無葬生之地的下場.

或許就是這種若即若離曖昧不明的態度,更是激發起了Brian的鬥誌和強烈的征服欲望,他把子沂看成是自己生命中不可或缺的一項戰利品,非拿下不可!

過去使Sting,the Police(警察合唱團)一炮而紅的經典名曲"Every Breath You Take"最貼切的形容了Brian當下對子沂的態度吧.

但Brian萬萬也料想不到原本隻是一時興起的獵人與被獵的愛情遊戲竟成了他此生最大的魔咒,把他狠狠的緊錮住不得超生!

而這首歌的歌詞也恰如其份的反應出未來在兩人交往瀕臨絕境時最真實的處境!

Every breath you take
And every move you make
Every bond you break, every step you take
I'll be watching you

Every single day
And every word you say
Every game you play, every night you stay
I'll be watching you

Oh, can't you see
You belong to me?
How my poor heart aches
With every step you take
Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake, every claim you stake
I'll be watching you

Since you've gone I've been lost without a trace
I dream at night, I can only see your face
I look around, but it's you I can't replace
I feel so cold, and I long for your embrace
I keep crying baby, baby please,

Oh, can't you see
You belong to me?
How my poor heart aches
With every step you take
Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake, every claim you stake
I'll be watching you
Every move you make, every step you take
I'll be watching you
I'll be watching you

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Every Bomb You Make
(Written by Quentin Reynolds and James Glen)

Every bomb you make
Every job you take
Every heart you break
Every Irish wake
I'll be watching you

Every wall you build
Every one you've killed
Every grave you've filled
All the blood you've spilled
I'll be watching you

Oh, can't you see
You belong to me?
There'll be a bill to pay
On your judgement day

For every empty plate
Every word of hate
When you subjugate
When you violate
I'll be watching you

Brian費盡心思要討得子芹的歡心連平時嗤之以鼻嫌浪費時間的演唱會也耐著性子打足十二萬分的精神陪子沂去.

兩人在張惠妹演唱會VIP搖滾區裏手牽著手頭靠著頭旁若無人竊竊私語時,冷不防被人拍了下肩膀.Brian扭過頭一看本來正想發怒,等看清是何人所為時本來緊握著子沂的手不自覺的馬上鬆開,嘴裏不自然地嚅嚅道:好巧啊,妳也來看阿妹演唱會呀...

隻見這位全身Chanel(香奈兒)套裝神情倨傲的年輕女子狠狠的瞪了兩人一眼,目光中流露出傷心欲絕不敢置信氣憤填膺的神色,一語不發掉頭就走.

子沂心知肚明:這不知道又是那樁風流債了?一聲不吭等著看Brian要如何自圓其說.

等那位妙齡女子巳走的不見人影Brian才神態自若表示:之前有長輩特地安排兩人相親想促成好事.出去吃過幾回飯實在不來電.等認識妳後自然就斷了聯係.

一些個說辭聽起來都合情合理言之確鑿,但子沂午夜夢回隻要一想起那淒厲不甘的眼神,心裏就被堵的發慌,再也睡不著覺了.

Brian話一說完手又摟上了子沂的肩,神態親昵的貼在子沂耳旁,"我心裏隻容得下妳一個,妳還不清楚嗎?"

遇上這種騙死人不償命的主,子沂無可奈何隻得暫且讓這頁先行翻過,等待時間去驗證一切.

演唱會結束後兩人匆匆趕到Brian友人歡聚的piano bar時,大部份在座的男土已微醺,有些喝高的甚至已開始和在陪的女伴們打情罵俏眉來眼去起來.

Paul見正主兒來了急忙起身讓座.

Brian立刻興高采烈地加入戰局和周遭友人玩起骰子比大小,一時間隻聽見吆喝聲和敬酒聲交錯好不熱鬧.

子沂趁此良機有意無意蹭到Paul身旁閑閑聊起演唱會上的不速之客,

Paul語帶玄機的暗示:身為Brian的鈇杆,這是頭一回見到Brian為了一株花而放棄了整個花園;而且這個花園占地之廣品種之多絕對不亞於一座西郊賓館哪!看看Brian為了子沂的犧牲有多大!

最後不忘奉勸子沂:見好就收網吧,免得過了這個村就沒那個店啦.

子沂笑臉盈盈地眨眨眼:可是我一向信奉薑太公的主張耶.

話雖說的如此斬釘截鈇理直氣壯,但子沂心中不禁開始天人交戰:是否要趁自己尚未深陷情網時打退堂鼓,至少還可搏的個全身而退?!