今晚又是一個不眠之夜。不知何故，最近又開始經常失眠，或者是突然地半夜裏從沉睡中驚醒。今天剛好租了些DVD，所以就索性拿了一盤看。
看的是《廊橋遺夢》。 這是第一次看這部電影，盡管10年前已經看過它的書。所以對故事的內容是早已了然於胸。記憶當中這是個悲劇。一段隻存在了4天的感情。一個關於舍棄激情誘惑而選擇了家庭，責任的故事。
10年後的今天，當我看完整部電影，發現自己淚流滿麵。我的心情非常複雜。為Francesca 和Robert之間隻存在了四天的情而難過。Francesca也掙紮過，她也躊躇，彷徨過。最後她的理智戰勝了激情，她的對家庭的責任戰勝了她的私情。我佩服，我惋惜，我難過，我驚歎。從古至今，理智和激情之戰一直都是一場難打的戰爭。可是，Francesca說了，once Robert and her left the house, it would be different. They might not like each other that much at all. 也許這就是我們中國人所說的“曇花一現”。 曇花雖然隻開“一現間”， 卻開出了它的及至之美。 Francesca和Robert之間擁有的盡管隻有四天，可是那可能是他們之間所能擁有的最美好的了。
Some people say life is interesting, while others say life is a joke. 人生太過完美，反而變成了一種缺陷。人生之美在與它的不完整，它喜怒無常，它的坎坷曲折；人生之美在於象Francesca 和Robert之間的遺憾。前一刻人們還因為遺憾而流淚哭泣，後一秒人們因為 “峰回路轉”，“柳暗花明又一村”而喜笑顏開。Francesca said in her letter to her kids, what she had with Robert would disappear as time passing; what she had shared with Richard (her husband) wouldn’t varnish because of their apart.
Naturally, this movie has reminded me of what I had experienced with Kevin. A relationship died way too early too. I still miss him sometimes. Whenever I hear any form of tragedies, bad news such as some stranger’s death still would make me sad; because they would remind me of Kevin’s death. But I am learning to move on. I am learning to accept what I have at moment. And I am learning to be grateful of that I had had. 人生因為不完整而美麗。
4：05am 11/08/2007
Melbourne
