我是天蠍座，果斷、勇敢、忠誠和誠實。
他是獅子座，11歲，我的兒子，傲慢、固執、不能接受批評。
昨天我們吵了一架。他的態度真的很讓我生氣。當他開始大聲喊叫時，我也高聲地回複：“我不會容忍這個家裏有任何不尊重的行為。”
“我沒有不尊重你！！” 他更大聲地尖叫，開始哭泣，雙腳蹦起來。
這讓我更加憤怒。
自兩周前回到家，我們就沒有離開過。昨天，我發現駕照不見了，到處找，幾個小時裏，翻了抽屜，檢查了包，漸漸的我越來越煩躁不安。
接著去車裏繼續找。結果一看，就生氣了：他總是不兌現承諾。我們是一個喜歡旅行的家庭。每次旅行結束後，每個人都有各自的責任。他的責任是從後座拿走東西並吸塵。這是我們唯一要求他做的事情。顯然他沒有做。
今天淩晨4點醒來，我依然感到煩躁。喝著加了新鮮檸檬汁的溫水，想起了他去年聖誕節送我的戒指。一個月沒戴它了，一個星形的、五顏六色的花戒指，太大了，可以覆蓋我的整個無名指。這是我們參觀威尼斯的玻璃吹製工廠時，他送我的一個驚喜。
戴上它的時候，我許下了自己的願望：“請幫助我找到與登登聯接的方法。”
躺在冥想室裏，蓋著的毯子感覺如此柔軟舒適，但我找不到一個舒服的姿勢來放鬆。創傷會留在我們的身體裏，我依舊感覺得到昨天爭吵的緊張和不安。是什麽讓我失去了耐心？肯定不是他。
我選擇了“心靈平靜”的冥想。
【首先，把所有的憂慮和擔憂都放進一個盒子裏，然後送走它們。】
我把那場爭吵放進了盒子裏。
但這個想法一直留在我的腦海裏。我堅持跟隨引導詞冥想。漸漸地，所有的激動開始消失，我發現自己變得平靜了。
【呼出所有舊的空氣，吸入新鮮空氣，開始新的一天。】
我深深吸氣，長長呼氣。
【尋求一個指路燈塔，想象你需要看見的東西。】
就在那一刻，我的腦海中出現了“投降並放手”這些話。
突然又冒出了檢查袋子的想法，這次我沒有不安。
早上5點15分，從冥想中起身，我走到了洗衣房。Vera Bradley的花卉手提包仍然掛在第一個鉤子上，就是昨天我檢查了所有口袋後放在那裏的。我再次深呼吸，開始搜尋每一個口袋。
外麵的口袋沒有。
裏麵有六個口袋。沒有、沒有、沒有、沒有、沒有……每個"沒有"都讓我感到失望。然後在最後一個口袋裏，我的錢包和駕照就在那裏！
找到駕照讓我想起了Ester Hicks在一次演講中分享的故事。有一天，她找不到心愛的項鏈，到處都找過了。幾周後，她還是不快樂，以為失去了它。然後某一天，在一個翻過十幾次的袋子裏，找到了項鏈。Ester講這個故事是為了說明當我們處於低頻時，根本看不見眼前的事物。
為什麽我會處於這樣的低頻呢？肯定不是登登的錯。他的行為隻是我內心痛苦狀態的啟動按鈕。
我相信沒有什麽值得讓自己失去快樂，所以用盡所有力量來保護我的快樂。
如果一直引燃你的人是你的兒子呢？怎麽能擺脫這種狀態？我是否想要躲避它？與其逃避，難道不應該去解決它嗎？
登登幾個月前剛過完11歲的生日。他是一個非常好的孩子！陽光燦爛，可以照亮整個家。
但他也會欺騙和撒謊，盡一切可能獲得玩遊戲的機會。
他在家裏做很多家務。每天洗碗，為全家洗衣服，收郵件，倒垃圾，還幫忙洗車，整理花園。
他做這些事情是為了得到積分，這樣他就可以玩他心愛的遊戲。但我還能期望一個決定在遊戲行業成就一生的男孩做什麽呢？
他是一個獅子座。
他慷慨又有胸懷、他超級自信、他堅定不移，是一位天生的領袖。這些是登登擁有的天然優勢。
當我們陷入低頻（緊張、焦慮、煩躁）時，經常會迷失。
昨天我就是如此。
當我處於低頻時，隻關注他的弱點，忘記了他的另一麵。
“他是一束快樂之光。偉麗，不要讓他的光芒黯淡。”就在兩周前與美麗的菲利普斯姐姐見麵時，這位烈焰女神友善地表達了她的觀察。
戴著星形花環的大戒指，我微笑著向宇宙表達了我的願望。
“願無盡的愛與我同在。我愛你，登登，我的兒子。無論你是誰，做什麽，我都愛你。這是我們的靈魂契約，我決心完成我的使命！我很感激你選擇我做你的媽媽，你一直是我生命中最偉大的老師。有些日子我會立刻學到教訓，有些日子我需要去尋找應該要做什麽。既然你選擇了我做你的媽媽，那麽我就是這份職責的合適人選。我願意為此終身奉獻！愛可以戰勝一切。”
我找到了駕駛執照，
坐在內心平靜的位置上，
係好安全帶,讓我們開心地出發吧！
傳遞給大家滿滿的愛
偉麗
I am a Scorpio. Determined, Brave, Loyal and Honest.
He is a Leo. Arrogant, Stubborn, Inability to accept criticism.
Yesterday we had a huge fight. His attitude really annoyed me. When he started to yell, I yelled louder. “I am not going to tolerate any disrespect in this house.”
“I am not being disrespectful!!” He screamed louder, started to cry, jumping on both feet.
This made me even angrier.
We haven’t left home ever since we got back two weeks ago. Yesterday, I couldn’t find my driver’s license. I looked everywhere. For hours, I cleaned the drawers, checked bags and got more and more agitated as the hours went by.
I went to the car to continue my searching. After taking one look, I got angry: He always promises and doesn’t deliver. We are a family of travelers. Everyone has their responsibilities after each trip. His is to pick up things from the back seat and vacuum. That is the only thing that we ask of him.
This morning, I woke up at 4:00 am. Still feeling agitated.
Sipping warm water with some freshly squeezed lemon, I remembered the ring that he bought me last Christmas. I haven’t worn it for a month. A star-shaped, multi-colored flower ring. It is so big, it covers my entire ring finger. It was a surprise present he bought for me in Venice when we visited the glass blowing factory.
While putting it on, I express my desire, “Please help me to find ways to connect with Norden.”
Lying down on the floor in my meditation room, the blanket gifted to me feels silky and soft but I can’t find a comfortable position to relax.
Our body carries traumas energetically. I still can feel the tension and discomfort of yesterday’s fight. What caused me to lose my temper? It certainly wasn’t him.
I chose a mediation called “Centered Calm”. First, it asked me to put all the worries and concerns in a box and send it away. I put that fight in the box. But the thought kept on drifting back. I persisted, followed the guided meditation. Gradually all the agitation started to die down and I found myself becoming peaceful. “Let go of all the old air that has already been used, take some fresh air in and start a new day.” I inhaled deeply and exhaled for a long time. “Ask for a guidepost, to show you something that you need to see”. Just at that moment, the words “Surrender and let go” came to me.
The thought of checking the bags again just popped in. This time, no agitation.
5:15 am, I got up from the mediation and went to the laundry room. The Vera Bradley flower tote bag still hangs on the first hook, exactly where I left it yesterday after checking all pockets. I take another deep breath, here we go.
I start to search in each pocket.
Outside pocket, no.
Inside there are six pockets. No, No, No, No, No... as with each no, I feel the disappointment again. Then in the very last pocket, as I reach down deep and my wallet is there with my driver’s license!
Finding my driver’s license reminded me of a story that Ester Hicks shared in one of her talks. One day she couldn’t find her beloved necklace. She looked everywhere. For weeks, she was so unhappy, thinking that she lost it. Then one day, she went back to the same bag that she had searched a dozen times and the necklace was just laying there. Ester tells this story to show that when we are at a low frequency, we can’t see what is right in front of us.
Why was I at such a low frequency? It certainly was not Norden’s fault. His behavior was only the trigger for my suffering inner state.
I believe nothing is worth losing my happiness over so I guard my happiness with all my forces.
I don’t watch the news. There has not been a sound from our TV for decades. I have selected my peer group very carefully. I eat healthily. I exercise.
But what if the person who triggers you continuously is your son? How could you possibly get away from that? Or do I want to? Instead of getting away, shouldn’t I be leaning in to solve it?
Norden just turned 11 years old a few months ago. And he is a beautiful child. He has a sunny personality that will light up the whole room.
But he also will cheat and lie, willing to do anything to get to his video games.
He does many chores at home. He washes dishes every night. He does the laundry for the entire household. He gets the mail in and takes the trash out. He helps wash the cars and takes care of the garden.
Yes, he does all these to get points so he can play his beloved games. But what else should I expect from a young boy, who has decided his lifetime achievement would be in the gaming industry?
Yes, he is a Leo.
He is Generous and Big-hearted. He is super Confident. He is Determined and he is a Natural Leader. These are the Key Strengths that Norden possesses.
When we get into a low frequency (stressed, anxious, agitated), often we are lost.
That was me, yesterday.
When I was at a low frequency, all I was focusing on were his weaknesses, forgetting there is another side of him.
“He is a bundle of Joy. WeiLi, don’t dim his light.” After meeting him two weeks ago, my beautiful sister, Phyllis, Goddess of Fire kindly offered her observation.
With the big star-shaped flower ring on my finger, I smiled and expressed my desire to the universe.
“May the force be with me. I love you Nor, my son. No matter who you are and what you do, I am here to love you. That is our soul contract and I am determined to fulfill my end of it! I am thankful that you chose me to be your mommy. You have by far been the biggest teacher in my life. Some days I will get the lessons right away and some days I will need to search for what the lesson is supposed to be. Since you chose me to be your mom, then I am the right one for this job. And I am willing to accept it for a lifetime! Love can conquer anything.”
I was able to find my driver’s license.
I am in the Centered Calm seat.
Buckle up. Let’s have a fun ride!
Love,
WeiLi
