暖冬cool夏
這裏一年四季溫暖如春，沒有酷暑沒有嚴寒......
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生日早已過了，今特此補記。
生日那天，女兒發了個微信給我，除了簡單的祝賀外，還告訴我說，她寄了一張生日卡給我。結果卡片過了好幾天才姍姍而至。打開卡片，那細細密密工整的字頓入眼簾, 讀到第二段就開始淚奔了(裏麵的內容女兒不讓post，故刪了，大概就是，她拎著行李來到新城市，看著空蕩蕩的公寓，聯想起母親二十年前來美)。我的女兒，一個不會甜言蜜語，一個我常常說她不夠sweet的人，卻用真摯心裏的話語把老媽的眼淚給煽下來了。看著我眼淚鼻涕的，LD還以為出啥事了，當我把卡片遞給他，他一邊讀，一邊不停地說，I am jealous! I am jealous! 還不忘加了一句，“她忘了，有我在這裏啊。”
二十年了，整整二十年。是的，二十年前，我把我們在廣州辛辛苦苦賺的嶄新的家具，床，書櫃，彩電，洗衣機，冰箱等，賤賣的賤賣，送人的送人，扔掉的扔掉。冰箱和洗衣機實在不舍賤賣，又匆匆趕到市場口，找人花錢托運回老家，還有那台LD花了九千多塊從電腦城買回來配置，一點點組裝起來的我們的第一台電腦也賤賣了。最後，隻剩些衣物和隨身用品，幾個箱子跟著我飄揚過海。跟當年的那些留學生比，我們算幸運了，沒有吃他們吃的苦。但我們同所有大陸移民一樣，經曆了其他方麵的艱辛，如辦身份等，其間的起起伏伏，一言難盡。隻記得，最困難時，LD沒了工作，一家人五個月沒有一分收入，幾乎是同一天，LD辦的綠卡也出了問題......
好在日子都過來了，好也好，不好也罷，歲月帶走一切，帶走芳華，卻又留下美好，留下遺憾，留下記憶。
我不知女兒的記憶裏留下多少。她可記得三歲不到的她，被媽媽摟在懷裏，兩人在兩人座的飛機上睡睡醒醒地度過十幾個小時？她可記得飛機抵達後，LD來接，她躲在媽媽的身後，偷偷看著他？她可記得第一個晚上，她指著臥室床邊的地毯，讓爸爸睡地上，因為她不習慣與這個陌生的爸爸同床睡覺？
二十年了，太多的往事，印在我的腦海，也一定刻在她成長的記憶裏。如今她長大了，也帶著幾隻箱子離家，隻是她的起點比我們高多了，生活也遠比我們當年的好，她一個人住一房一廳的公寓，而那時的我們，三個人擠在一房一廳裏......
這就是我們這代人付出、努力的結果。雖然，二十年前我們義無反顧地遠渡重洋，追逐著夢想和更好的未來，二十年來，中國的發展翻天覆地，日新月異，真可謂三十年河東三十年河西。且不論我們選擇的對錯，得與失，且不論我們再十年二十年後會在哪裏，最終何處養老，魂歸何處，但這裏無疑已經是我的第二個故鄉，一個我生活了二十年，還要繼續生活下去的地方，期間的歡樂、悲傷、成功、失敗，連同這裏的山山水水，一草一木已經融入我的生命和記憶裏，無法磨滅。
This birthday card from my daughter came after my birthday belatedly. Tears swelled right after I started reading the second paragraph, and they ran down my cheeks, non-stopping. My husband, unaware, looked at me caringly and suspiciously. I handed him the card.” I am jealous! I am jealous! “was what he repeated saying that night.
My girl, who is not very expressive and who I always think could be sweeter like other girls, wrote something from her heart that touched me, a card that I will cherish for good.
What mired deep in my memory, as stirred by her words, were actually the days we left for America twenty years ago. The days when I took her for visa, which got denied once but approved the second time; the days when I posted on the billboards to sell the furniture, TV, washing machine, refrigerator, computer, etc. Everything we earned hard for the new home had to go away grudgingly. Those days were hectic, sad and excited, a mixed feeling of leaving the land I had been raised for so many years and joining the husband in the far distant world overseas, for a better life.
All our belongings were whittled down into a few suitcases, and with the dreams we started anew here in America. Nothing was easy, the jobs, the green cards, and the life. It took us seven years to get the green cards, and when we finally went back to the motherland after the green cards, we were astonished at the alarming changes taking place in the hometown. The places we used to be so familiar with were no longer the same. Everywhere we went, it was full of vibrant people, young or old, talking about how to make money, more and bigger money.
Twenty years is long in our life, and we may only have another twenty years to live on, plus or minus. Looking back, we might not know for sure if we made the right decision then to immigrate here, but at least from the daughter’s perspective, she thinks the answer was positive and certain. I guess no place in this world is perfect, and neither will be our life. Wherever we go, our visions are expanded, and memory etched with the place, the people, and the culture irreversibly and irresistibly.
俺真糊塗，前兩天來串門，都忘了祝冬夏MM生日快樂。補祝一下子哈。
今天得空進城，看到MM的留言，非常感動！
我女兒今年聖誕節去加拿大玩去了，留下我們兩口子守空巢，聖誕樹下也是空空的，顯得有些冷清。昨晚上去朋友家參加了平安夜party。今天我們這裏最高氣溫30度，太冷了不想出門。就在家看書看電視，享受那份清淨和安寧吧。
祝全家聖誕，新年快樂！
我們雖隻是網上相識，但感到我們倆的經曆非常相似。緊緊握手！二十多年過去了，現在也常常回憶往事，隻是我寫不出來哈。
祝全家節日愉快！
生日快樂！
聖誕新年快樂！
文章好感人啊，女兒長大了，懂事了，能讓媽媽幸福的流淚了！
看來你對星座很熟悉啊，我還特意去百度了，說得挺準，尤其喜歡最後一句，”無疑是每一個思考型男性的夢中情人”,哈哈。You made my day.謝謝謝謝。祝土豆禾苗聖誕快樂！
有這樣一個閨女，現在回過頭去想想，一切都值！！
（晚上也別忘了安慰/讚美一下孩子她爹，掐一把也行，更讓他體會存在感，：））
節日快樂，：）
（對了，12月射手座的，都很冷靜理性的，：））
我們的緣分太奇妙了，早知道我們的生日在同一個月，今天又發現我們來美國的年份也差不多。還有。好像我們都沒有經曆留學。
讀了你上一篇的Party，本想留言後來其它事情打岔了。我們公司的聖誕Party也是上周四，和你一樣，素麵朝天就去了。我們有太多的相似之處了：-）
祝妹妹聖誕新年快樂。