To the one I loved

I look through your eyes, I see you're doubting, I wanna turn back, run away, disappear from your sight, even I've got nothing to hide. You were questioning about my life, is it that important to know my past? I have suffered from the pain called unknown, that I broke my glassy heart, I have been so down during the time, I almost couldn't bear and survive. And then I froze my heart, blocked my tears, promising myself I would always be strong. You came up to my world, was it fate? was it lust? was it real love? I told myself to open my heart to you, clear the shadows, prepare for the sunshine, you give me warm, make me feel I might live again, I am melting, I know I might get another start. Then I see your doubts. It's like a knife stabbing me, cutting my softest part slowly, screwing into deep inside with poisons, my heart is bleeding... I am again in pain. I have suffered enough. Please leave me if you don't love me. Please treasure me for my last faith of love. Take me as how I am and who I am, since I am the way it is in this world. I know I have been wrong, but who hasnt? What's love? It's about us, it's about trust. Wealth, power, and short lust will never bring me happiness, you know what I wanted is just to be there for you, as you are here for me. I just wanna bring up a life with you, as how we suppose to be. Love doesn’t cost a thing, Love me, for me. My love is priceless but not cheap~~~ If you leave, will the distance make our hearts apart? If I cry, will you feel my sorrow through my tears? If we carry it on, will we find the solution to build a future together? If I die, will you throw the first rose to my grave and kiss me good bye in the air? It has been too fast for us to start our relationship. I am a little scared, because of your leaving, because of the breaking time, because of the so many unsecured issues. Are you gonna be there for me, whenever I need you? Am I gonna be THE ONE for you, for our life time? Are you gonna be ready for this change of life, when you come back? Are we gonna survive from all the suffer? Oh, god, bless me, let things flow naturally. Pain is love. Love hurts... Sadly, cat