a sad day

September 23, 2007, lunar canlender Aug. 13,2007, I forever lost my dear second brother. he left me so sudden. It's such a shock to me . left me wonder what is the life all about. I got no answer till now.

I am still searching, and i am deeply depressed, with my marriage on the edge, i can't find a way out.

For Ian ,my baby, i have to be strong, i certainly know that, but what next?