女兵劉服役美軍日記——01、07、07

01/07/2007 08:30 pm

北卡州， Fort Jackson ，傷兵連。我們聚集一處，軍嘈照例做晚間點名。

這時有一個女兵開始找我的麻煩，她大叫什麽這個母狗吻起來像隻雞 (whore) 。我知道她在說我，我有點怕。我低著頭，試圖找個洞鑽進去。然後她接著叫喚“我知道，她吻上去好像剛剛結束七天野外訓練。”然後就是哄笑。我不明白為什麽我會成為眾矢之的。這個女兵在連裏是個禍害，名聲不好。我可以找以前的文件查她的名字。我猜她叫 Private Smith ，二十好幾的金發女郎。這時有些男兵開始竊竊私議，我看到 Private William ，我們的排助理，向我靠近，試圖看我有什麽氣聞兒。我感到被侮辱。我希望我能瞬間遁去。最後，我們的長官過來讓我們解散，回營房，我才解脫。到現在，我都沒搞清他們為何選中我來戲弄。可能因為我是黃皮膚。自那以後，又有更嚴重的謾罵。有一個戰士辱罵我，是魔鬼。我沒有還嘴。我一直在壓抑內心的火氣。真是實生不如死。不知這樣的不幸會有多久。
０１／０８／０７，０１００　淩晨、
現在，是我站崗。其餘的戰士都在睡覺。我問了一個也在站崗的士兵，我到底做了什莫，他們如此對我。他也對我表示同情。
０１／０８／０７，０５００　淩晨
有幾個戰士又像往常一樣的辱罵我，這時候，我再也仍不住了，大聲音叫得起來，“你們為什麽辱罵我，你們罵的每一句話，我都明白，你們是一群混蛋。然後，長官來了，送我去了心理專家做檢查。 長官欺軟怕硬。
ＴＯ　ｂｅ　ｃｏｎｔｉｎｕｅｄ．．．．

The Fitness Company, Fort Jackson, SC.
We were gethered in our company area, following orders by our Drill Sergeant as always every evening at this time for the name count.
Now a female soldier started to find fault with me, she shouted, this bitch smelled like a whore. I knew exactly she meant me, and I was a little scared. I bowed my head, wanted to disappear and hide in a hole. And then she went on, “I know now, she smelled like when you just finish the 7 day in the field.” Then there was this roaring of laughter. I had no idea why I became the target they chose to pick on. This female soldier was the trouble maker in our Platoon, bad reputation. I can dig my old paper works and find her name. I am guessing her name is Private Smith, a blond woman in her late twenties. And now some male soldiers started to gossip, and I noticed Private William, who was our Assistant Platoon Guide, approached me, and tried to smell me. I felt so ashamed, and embarrassed. I wish I were somewhere else at the moment. Finally

[Chinesebuns]

我覺得進入軍隊對人絕對是一種磨練。我曾經想去加入US Army,可我老公不讓，說怕我被派去戰場。他的父輩們的幾代人是西點軍校的畢業生，我曾經對那裏和做軍官有著美好的幻想，但從打去過那參觀以後俺就怕了。我覺得我不會那麽Strong.我會瘋掉的。很敬佩姐姐。還沒全看完姐姐的故事，退役了嗎？