how to get better from 強迫症

在我十幾歲時，我是一個快樂的女孩。

我上了大學，並在大二鬱悶。

我做了很好的學校，但常常鬱悶。

直到，我遇到了這個在讀研究生loser。他說服了我發生性關係。因為他是第一想我是相當足夠attractive的人。因為姐姐經常tease我的appearance。我有自卑。

我懷孕了。我人流了。I had an abortion.

我開始非常鬱悶。我想到了自殺，是什麽阻止我? 是Wilkerson的書。他說給上帝三天。讓他做一個奇跡。我決定等待，自殺念就走了。

一晃14年過去了，還是鬱悶。同時，我生病了。發熱和炎症。有一陣子，我想我可能會得癌症。

我發了強迫症。我每天去教堂兩個小時。我必須參加在教堂所有的活動。我必須道歉。。我開不好車。我必須非常非常節儉。我想知道為什麽。我是一個工作狂，
後來我意識到，這些都是由內疚驅動的，因為我認為我不值得live或過好日子，我懲罰我自己。現在，我開更好的車，而不是強迫症。現在好多了。感謝您的閱讀。

I developed OCD. I had to go to church every day for two hours. I had to attend all events at church. I had to apologize to people first. I had to do my rituals for two hours. I had to drive bad cars. I had to be very very frugal. I had to give things to people. I was wondering why. I was a workaholic as well.。

直到我試圖從abortion愈合. I received healing through Rachel's vineyard, and from Sisters of Life. Then I realized that these are compulsions driven by guilt, because I believed I did not deserve to live or live a good life, I was punishing myself. Now I drive a better car, not as OCD. Much better now. Thank you for reading.