舊詩一首--When I am with you

舊詩一首。今天因為評論一個網友的帖子，寫到“to be with you",想起這首舊作，重新翻出來。

那時候我和LG還是朋友，soulmate,但還談不上通俗意義上的戀人，更不是情人。 我們長期分居兩地，能夠在一起的很短暫的一兩天時間，就是在咖啡館聊天，去書店看書，在外灘散步，談論God，love, pain , self-steem, mistakes，regrets and growth。 都是我生命裏最關心在意的一些話題和困惑。

我們都很reserved，那時候還沒有牽過手，隻是在分別的時候，他親過一次我的額頭。

分別後，我想念和他在一起的時光，寫了這首詩。是我的真實感覺， 我甚至對他談不上愛，因此整首詩裏也沒有敢寫愛。

When I am with you 
                詩篇23 寫於 5/14/2007

When I am with you,
 The air smells differently ,
Like flowers blossom in April.

When I am with you,
 I  wish time stands still,
 But I know it would fly,
Faster than ever.
 
When I am with you ,
I don’t care what things we do,
As long as,
I am with you.

Sitting in a couch,
Reading a book,
Watching TV,
Taking a nap at noon in the couch,
Walking on the street ,by the river
Going to bookstore/coffee shop...
 I don’t care, I don’t care,
We talk, we don’t talk,
 I don’t care ,
As long as I get to see you,
See your shinning eyes looking into mine
 Shall we listen some music?
Oh, no, I feel dizzy just seeing you,
I ‘ll be drunk if adding music, no no no

When I am with you
But the air smells so different ,
 the air smells fresh, pure , full of peace and joy
when I am with you.

When I am with you,
I am a better person, I feel so
 I am having hope, I feel so
I am closer to HIM(注）, I feel so

I ‘ll be sad since I know I may miss you more later
Unbearable
I feel sweet and sad,
Full of courage , but also scared
If I look somewhere else , that is because I want to hold my tears
I am soooo happy, but why I want to cry ?

The wind blowing the trees,
The grass turning green ,
Your smile like the wind, blowing my heart ,
You bring the sunshine into my world ,
The feeling is so good,
When I am with you,
 I just want to be with you ,
I’ll be with you…


（注）Him means God. My husband helped me tremendously in my relationship with God. we did not focus on each other at the beginning of our relationship. I do not think we were ready for a relationship at that time. we developed our friendship,  he helped me to understand :"no matter if you feel or not, God loves you, that is the fact"

半年後，我們又見麵了，2年多後，我們結婚了。it has been a very very good journey to walk with God, with your loved one.