洪晃:無目的美好生活

咱國家，每年GDP都能增長五、六、七個點，要不是有好多好多人“深深地投入”了好幾回，怎麽會有這種盛世景象。隻不過我們的投入都是非常有目的的，是追求回報的。在咱這兒，投入的人不少，那怕是投入愛情、藝術和友誼，都能算出個內部、外部和中部的回報率，算不出來就堅決不投。

我曾經有一個朋友，其老公是加洲一漢學家，這兩口子深深地在中國文人身上投入了好幾回，把他們一個個弄去加洲，好吃好喝，認真投入友情，有時候還搭上點愛情和色情，但是回報都不太好。就比如吧，他們把一個無名演員推薦給一個大導演，演員最後睡了導演，和他們吵翻了。還比如，他們也把我介紹給導演幹個小活，結果他們跟睡導演的演員吵翻了時候，我采取中立的立場，沒站在他們一遍譴責這個該死的小婊子，從此以後，他們再也不在我身上浪費時間了。

總而言之，我們的投入都是有目的的，我們投入友情是為了關係，投入愛情是為了占有，投入藝術是為了成名成家，我們對回報的期望質到了不可控製的地步，而一旦沒有得到，我們可以堅定地放棄。在咱這，啥都有個bottom line, 如果經商，這詞應該翻譯為“底線”，是個數字概念；但對於那種對友誼、愛情和藝術追求回報的人來講更確切的翻譯可能是“屁股線”，當其期待的回報沒有的時候，他的屁股就再也不會坐在你這遍了。

我這輩子隻上過三堂哲學課，然後就知難而退了。我當時對知識的投入很明確，就是為了文憑和獎學金，哲學這玩意太深奧，我搞不明白，怕分數太低，丟了獎學金，拿不著文憑。但這三堂教的東西我至今記得非常清楚，第一堂課說的是“目的”，第二堂課說的是“過程”，第三堂課老師讓每個人給自己定位是追求目的，還是追求過程。我向來力爭作一個追求目的的人，但骨子裏是個追求過程的人，因為我致命的缺點就是貪玩。隻要好玩我就想作，管你什麽內部回報和屁股線，不想那麽多。所以我在一個GDP增長五、六、七個點的經濟奇跡中造就了個人財富增長率進入負數的奇跡。

我這種傻瓜不多，但還是有的，現在和我一起在大山子798工廠瞎折騰的人就是這類人。明明知道還有不到12個月，地主就要把所有人都撚出去，現在的裝修在短期內就會被推土機全部壓平，還是有人在往這裏搬，還有人在裝修，還有人在創作。這種投入除了享受一下過程大概沒有什麽別的回報了。

我倒是挺想號召大家沒有目的地，深深地投入一回。要知道，生活的樂趣都在過程裏麵，而目的隻是在長長的過程之後一秒種的高潮。

 
                                                                                                              --洪晃

[flamenco_girl]

I agree too that China is in a developing stage, the growth is not balanced across. Maybe this can be counted as "growing pain".

[flamenco_girl]

Melly, I agree with you that enjoying goal or process is also an individual style and preference. We can see both types of people around us. "Shouldn't one enjoy the process clearly and intensivey and 難得糊塗 when missing the climax of reaching the goal"? Yes, it happens all the time, and it happens more to one type than another though, dosen't it?

[melly]

回複flamenco_girl的評論:

I appreciate your much clearer insight about process and goal. It is the goal which makes the long process much more enjoyable and meanwhile painful. It highly depends if the one is optimistic or pessimistic, I guess, and it is a state of mind and personal view. Shouldn't one enjoy the process clearly and intensivey and 難得糊塗 when missing the climax of reaching the goal? hehe....

She ironocally critized people who lost their interest for spiritual dreams but pursuing money and power in China in all 3 essays you posted here. I agree with her. While I was visiting my hometown last winter, I felt people and the city were very pompous. I do not like it but I don't blame it either since people have different dreams. And one is not able to enjoy spiritually unless he/she has plenty materially and doesn't have to worry about his/her daily life. The things I do not like is the less and less moral values.

[flamenco_girl]

I feel it's the goal make 過程 more enjoyable, because you have hope, though you may never reach the goal. So, the 目的 is not only contribute to the 長長的過程之後一秒種的高潮. You may never have the 高潮, but enjoyed the 過程 with the hope, then you may still achieve a lot. Like in dance competition, everyone's goal is Champion, but very few can make it in life time. End up, we enjoyed dancing with great motivation to improve along the way. If someone don't have a goal, but just go through the process of learning dance day by day, likely will not improve so fast, and not be able to enjoy intensively either. We can see plenty of examples.

I guess, she is trying to say 現在大部份中國人太現實，太重利益。

[melly]

Apparently, you love her essays. Me too. Full of humor, wittiness and wisdom. "屁股線", what a vivid word.

People always say that we enjoy the process of life rather than the results. However, people still feel disappointed when failing to obtain what they expect. It applies for wealth, work, love, friendship. 生活的樂趣都在過程裏麵，而目的隻是在長長的過程之後一秒種的高潮。This is so true.

Thank for sharing.

Good weekend.