Hi I posted how I recovered from depression, it is a true story.
If you are depressed, a female, with a history of abortion, you should seek healing for abortion related syndromes, it includes depression and OCD.
If you are depressive or have OCD and you have a history of trauma, then you could seek counseling. just talking about it will make you feel better.
If you do not have money, then you can go to AA meetings it is free and they have a 12-step program.
Hope you recover soon.
Don't take your life, just even wait for a period, the depression will get better itself sometimes. I have met two people very depressed last year, now they are all well.