網友們好！謝謝大家一直以來的跟讀和幫助！我說一下這周發生的事情。比較長，請大家多多包涵。
8/15 我收到R的一封郵件，內容如下：
It has come to my attention that you have been asking new staff in the office about their work schedule and flexibilities; and further engaging in unprofessional discussion/conduct. In addition, you are discussing and trying to compare your merit increase with other staff. Your behavior continues to make colleagues uncomfortable. As a second warning, I am asking you not to engage in unprofessional conduct. You have been provided means to discuss questions and concerns you may have directly with me.
我馬上給她和Employee Relations 的L回郵件，問R what “further engaging in unprofessional discussion/conduct.” I did。我又解釋了事情的來龍去脈。我們上周有個新人M告訴我她8:30上班。她應聘時可以選擇a start time between 7:30-8:30. That was when I said I wish I had the same treatment from my supervisor, allowing me to pick a time during the same timeframe. I definitely didn’t ask about flexibility as I didn’t know that was even an option. 關於工資的事，my comment was that I got 2.8% raise this time and I’m totally okay with it. I know the average is 3.5% so I said since 我們部門有三個人are salaried, they definitely work more than 40 hours a week. So I’m glad that 0.7% I didn’t get would mean they could get more than 3.5%, which they totally deserve. That was all what happened. 然後說有人給R feed false information about my behavior. Please investigate it while everyone’s memory is still fresh because this just happened last week. I do not believe I had engaged in any unprofessional discussion/ conduct regarding the work hours or pay rate as R accused me of.
很快R就給我和L send a meeting invite called “touchbase”. 8/16 我給她倆發郵件，堅持等L調查結束後再開會，並要求L給會議錄像，這樣的話 any he said she said situation would be avoided.。如果不能錄像，I would then recommend to have another director and above level leader (or another staff member from L’s team) to join the meeting as an impartial third party witness. 並且說if L did indeed find my conduct were inappropriate, please point out to me the relevant 單位policies so I can learn from it。L告訴我她會找一個同事來參加我們的會。
會議是昨天開的。L當然沒有發現我做錯什麽。她隻是提醒我有人可能會覺得uncomfortable 談論工資的事。我還是想把我的上班時間改回到8:45-5:15. The reason R given for changing my schedule to 8-4:30 is because that is the schedule of everyone. R還假惺惺的問我誰可以晚來。目的就是讓我說出這兩個同事的名字，她將來好利用來挑撥我和同事的關係。我說出了T（她8:45來）和M。 L一定是想幫我，說她會去調查那兩個人的schedule。我估計她現在也特別煩R這種無端指責別人的行為。我今天上午在樓道裏看到了T，就悄悄地告訴了她R昨天是如何逼我供出她和M的。我在後麵提到的今天給employee relations的兩個與會者（L和她的同事A）的郵件裏也說Knowing R well by now, 當她問我誰可以晚來I immediately realized she would someday change their schedule （T和M的）to 8-4:30 when they displease her and tell them she has to do it because of me.
As I had expected, R在會上 made fresh new accusations again me and she accused me of under-performing after she purposely added another FTE workload to my original full time job. R還 accused me of not doing my job while I’m alone in the office. Her evidence was that I had my friend visit me in the office.
我今天給L和A發郵件，總結了一下昨天的會議。同時要求他們調查R對我的這些新的不實指控(have IT look into my computer activities around 5 PM on 6/9/23. This would clear my name of R’s yet another false accusation).我朋友是在6月9號5點左右拿一些basil苗給我。因為那天天很熱，我就邀他進來喝點涼水。我又提出已經有兩年多我都是單位最後走的人，而且朋友來是在六月份，R偏偏現在才說我一個人在辦公室“God knows doing what” (her own words). Then she again changed my schedule to 8-4:30 on 7/20. Aren’t both of these clear indications she was retaliating me for my refusal to follow her request of not bringing up the issues to L that Tina had been mistreating me for a long period of time?
R accused me of under-performing. This is something I predicted would happen the day she assigned another full time job work to my original full time job. 我要求L 和 A assess the workload R had assigned to me. Were her actions abuse of power and retaliatory?
R一直在催我培訓T。現在她說我under performing。我就問L和A，Now that R accused me of being under performing, does that automatically disqualify me as a trainer? Shouldn’t she be trained by a top performer, instead of an under performer? There’re two members in my team who used to do my current job and are well qualified to do the training. 培訓定在了下周五。我會在那天發郵件給R，質疑under performer的qualification as a trainer.
郵件結尾時我說，I’d like to share with you that I’m trying to find a new job. All the accusations from R are mentally and physically draining, making it impossible to focus 100% on a job I love so much. My sleep pattern greatly suffers from it too. I can’t work for someone who doesn’t appreciate my hard work, talent and skills, who belittles and devalues my work, and baselessly question my professional ethics. I’m in constantly fear that she would make more false accusations against me or find excuses to fire me. My heart was broken when I realized I have to sneakily do my original job, because R told me I have to spent 50% or 75% of time on the new job she added to my list. I wish I had spent the time working instead of writing this kind of unproductive (in the sense of doing my actual job) emails, but this is my way of crying for help from experts like you guys and desperately trying to improve this toxic work environment I’m trapped in。
我昨天曾經建議A去了解我這個case的來龍去脈。他比L資格老（他是senior的職位），但從他昨天的發言可以看出，他一點都不了解情況。我在郵件裏附上有關我這個case的所以郵件，以便他參考。
順便說一下找工作的情況。我拿到四個pre-screening. 其中一個覺得我不太合適。另外一個給的工資實在太低。還有一個工作在我以前工作過的一個單位。一個前同事曾經告訴我她的工資，和我現在的差不多。沒有想到我申請的這個工作比她的職位高，工資反而不怎麽樣。我和麵試的人說，我會看整個package。不知道我能不能進到第二輪麵試。第四個工作不錯，但可能會有能力更好的申請者。我本來想擴大申請範圍，然後就發生了R的這些無端指責。這個周末會大概看看找工作的事情，但我現在完全明白了找一份和目前工資相當的工作難度很高。既然R這麽能作，還不如留在這個單位看看她如何蹦躂，及蹦躂多久。R的上司下周休假回來。我會把最近的郵件發給她。並且特意提到R對我沒完沒了的無端指責和打擊報複。
再次感謝大家的支持和鼓勵。我會盡量調整好自己的情緒，和保持平穩的心態。下周有新情況我會接著更新。祝大家周末愉快！
