Sorry that I can't type Chinese, but I love this word, copy and past here!!
Please do not feel so bad! You are not the worst here!! Many people is 苦er than you!
For the past three years, I feel the same way! 苦! 苦! 苦! I never lost my job, but my hu*****and lost twice within two years, and he still did not find a new job since last May!
Life changed a lot for us, the hardest thing for me is watching my kids suffering! We moved twice, they lost their friends, lost the house they loved, and worried all the time that we might move again......... I almost cried one day when my little boy cried to ask his Dad to get a job soon because he wants a Wii (since Dad promised him to get one once he gets a job).
Life is hard at this time for many people! We just have to wait, and hold...........
Best wishes for you!!!!