You must be depressed and overwhelmed

You might not be able to see the lights before you and put too much pressure on yourself. Maybe pressure come from both your work and family.
It's typical during economic recession/depression. You should look at the bright side: you still get a job and you are not homeless. Even homeless can still live. Be optimistic. Writing down what problems do you have. Then set the priority and solve them one by one. Everybody has some difficult time, be strong and be positive. Solve one problem at a time. Nothing is bigger than life.