隱痛

不小心打翻了記憶，突然之間，心裏湧出了莫名的痛，很痛，像針刺一般。在這個靜靜的疲憊的孤獨的午後，淚水不爭氣的落下，似乎到了世界末日。

原來釋懷還是如此的艱難。想找個沒人的地方大哭一場，讓眼淚帶走一切的記憶；想蒙上被子大睡一覺，再也沒有夢。

電話那端傳來的聲音清晰悅耳。謝謝你還記得我，真的謝謝你。你留給我那麽多回憶，你曾帶給我那麽多甜蜜。你說過你是個與眾不同的人，我相信。

一想到你，便有絲絲的甜，又伴著絲絲的苦澀；便有絲絲的暖，又伴著絲絲的寒意。

我不應該感到痛，我應該感到高興。在這樣的寂寞的午後和傍晚，你又一次悄悄的來到我身邊，陪我伴我，盡你所能。

有時候，我會突然很害怕，因為你的模樣在我心裏越來越不清晰。我總以為當隻有輪廓剩下的時候，我就釋然了，可事實是我在有意無意的拚命想記住你，記住你的樣子，記住你說過的話。

I believe you still care for me just as I do to you. I am happy and appreciate for having been sheltered by your heart.


Let it go. Let it go. It is time to let it go. Be patient with life. Be patient.

[漫遊]

I can not remember how many times I have read this. Another Melly's masterpiece.

[Loft]

回複melly的評論:
按照自己的方式去生活，或許有傷痛，一定有傷痛，但是這些傷痛，能夠自己在生活中去化解，無論碰到任何的愉快，或不愉快，都知道應該用怎樣的表情去麵對, right?
Yes, Loft is on eAnn Taylor sub-brand :-)

Eliz

[melly]

回複Loft的評論:
Yes, you are right. But don't you think it is not easy to perform? hehe...

Thanks for stopping by.

By the way, your nickname reminds me of Ann Taylor, one of my favorite brands.

Talk more.

[Loft]

緣起緣滅，緣濃緣淡，不是我們能夠控製的。我們能做到的，是在因緣際會的時侯好好的珍惜那短暫的時光.漫漫人生，我們遇到了另外一個人。雖然不能終老，但我們曾經擁有最甜美的時光。他裏麵有我，我裏麵也有他。我流淚、飲泣，然後我微笑。世界上有兩種可以稱之為浪漫的情感 ：一種叫相濡以沫，另一種叫相忘於江湖 。人生如寄，有什麽是可以真正擁有？無言的走遠,又能有什麽選擇？

離開之後，希望你把我忘記。如果你會記得想念我的，不要忘記我也在想念你

[melly]

回複blhw72的評論:
I had the C-section. So I didn't experience contraction pain.

You are right, life is short. We have to live with something and without sth in the meantime.

I know you will resonate with my essay. haha..

[blhw72]

回複melly的評論: We both must be secret lesbians!!!!

[blhw72]

I used to be so certain that the worst pain on this planet was the contraction pain when having a baby. I believed that I was authorized to announce it because I'd experienced.

Now I am shilly-shally after reading you "secret anguish". Deeply I feel for you and fall into a moment of speechlessness.......

Sure, let it go....... That is also a statement of "having no way out".

The secret anguish is so familiar and so real. Sometimes it mercilessly swallows my soul and spirits. There are no words accurately to describe what it exactly is. I am only granted to feel it and suffer from it. It is such a vunerable place deep in my heart and easily be triggered with grieves and tears.

Gosh, is it the soul purpose? Once hubby talked about life. He truly had faith in life. Life is a short journey. We all initiated it in a rush with picking up whatever we could at that time -- joys as well as pains. Through lifetime, we use healing to take care of our pains.

If the pains do stay with us in life, then we manage and live with them.

[melly]

回複blhw72的評論:
Hi pretty,

Once I was done with writing, I started to feel better.

Now seeing a pretty girl, I feel thrilled.

[melly]

回複靜水蒼蘭的評論:

心死，哀；心不死，傷。好在有你們幫我撐著。

嗬嗬

[blhw72]

Feel better now, honey?

Let it go.....

love

[靜水蒼蘭]

哀莫大於心死。所以，還有淚可流，其實已經是很值得感恩的事情；特別是，當還有人聽你傾訴的時候，那簡直是幸福得無邊了，））））

[melly]

哈哈，居然沒有挨罵，還以為你要痛斥我小資呢。

要知道有時候女人截長補短的要用眼淚來殺殺菌消消毒，有益健康，對吧.

[靜水蒼蘭]

痛卻快樂著的絲絲苦澀，不可言說、難以分享，但卻必定是自己心靈的專屬財富，時時如溫暖的小燈，忠實伴隨並照亮獨力前行的路。