回國劄記 二 新年晚會

臨回國前(二月十二號)去伊麗莎白女王劇院觀看“同一首歌”在溫哥華主辦的“新年群星齊萃晚會”。整台晚會氣氛熱烈，節目精彩，兩台三地來了很多明星，濟濟一堂。

曾誌偉和女兒曾寶儀，以及台灣的著名節目主持人小燕聯手主持，咋咋呼呼地十分熱鬧。期間他的外孫女上台來亮相，春節期間在異鄉三世同台，也算是這個職業的一個特色。如他們所說，每逢過年過節，他們便格外忙碌，常常一家人分在不同的地方，不能團圓，像這樣能夠同台演出，也屬不易。

這次參加演出的明星有：汪明荃，任賢齊，張韶涵，鄭秀文，劉歡，田震，張明敏，童安格，蔡琴，等等。一首首老歌把人們的懷舊情緒調動起來，彌漫了整個劇院。

聽著這些熟悉的老歌，屈指算算，二十年過去了，真的不敢相信。記得那時有一首歌唱道：再過二十年，我們來相會。。。二十年，多麽遙遠，可是我們現在就在二十年後，一切都發生了那麽多變化。新世紀也已來臨，那時我們做命題作文，想象四個現代化的實現時，如何能想到今天物質生活，現代化的程度。很多的事物都是我們當時怎樣也無法預計的。

汪明荃的“萬水千山總是情”讓我憶起港台電視劇開始盛行的時代，那樣的瘋狂和癡迷，一部接著一部，狂熱地跟著。我印象最深的是“霍元甲”和“上海灘”，那些主題曲到今天還在腦海裏縈繞。“萬裏長城永不倒，千裏黃河水滔滔，江山秀麗，疊彩峰嶺，問我國家哪像染病。。。”“浪奔，浪流，萬裏滔滔江水永不休，淘盡了世間事。。。”天天詠唱的都是長江黃河我的大中國，愛國激情日漸高漲。

童安格從前曾讓我迷戀了好一陣子，歌聲裏的柔情常常讓我融化了。這次他穿著高領毛衣加外套登場，還戴著一頂貝雷帽，怪怪地。歌聲依舊，他還是那樣不慌不忙，一板一眼，在舞台上踱步，唱到深情處半側著身子仰起頭，要放飛激情似的。可是人老了，不可避免地老了很多。十幾二十年，真不是玩的。

最讓我震驚的是張明敏，第一次唱中國心時他清瘦，斯文，長長的白圍巾和鏗鏘有力的歌聲見證了海外華人的愛國之心，激得所有黃皮膚黑眼睛的中國人熱血沸騰。這天他同樣唱了這一首歌，可是他卻已變成一個黑胖的中年人，當年愛國知識青年的味道蕩然無存，讓人感慨時光的印記。他的第二首歌是我最喜歡的“壟上行”，我一直覺得這首歌曲調歌詞優美浪漫，讓我聞到田野的氣息，聽到秋日高空中飛揚的雲笛，再次觸到這歌流行的那一個夏天我快活自由的心境。

蔡琴的表現令人失望。很久以來她的歌聲打動了無數的聽眾，是試聽音響的傳統曲目。她的聲線，歌聲裏的韻味都十分特別，一曲“恰似你的溫柔”是我青春時光裏暗暗的心跡。可是她在台上不多的言談卻無可掩飾地讓人感覺到她內心的膚淺，和急於功利。說話沒有水平，很自我，驕傲，不顧一切地推銷自己，真不敢相信這就是唱出那樣美妙歌聲的蔡琴。看來藝術作品和創造人本身有時還是有距離的，正如電影裏的人物並不等於演員本人一樣。

節目中間穿插了一些節日的祝福，還有一些來自UBC的學生和大家分享自己的經曆和思鄉之情，有幾個同學和歌星張韶涵一起演唱即興節目。這些都是春節的老套路了，以前春節聯歡會上常有類似的部分，海外不同地方的華人說幾句話，在屏幕上放一放，一群人站在國旗前齊聲大喊：祖國你好。可是今年不同，我坐在觀眾席上，看著大屏幕放著這些老掉牙的玩意兒，竟忍不住要哭了，心裏大聲地也在喊：祖國，你好！祖國，你好！我從來沒有想到有這麽一天，春節時分我坐在異鄉的大劇院裏，這樣地思念自己的國家，這樣深地沉浸在思鄉懷舊的情緒裏。

在這樣的近距離親眼看到這麽多用他們的歌聲在我的生命裏留下印記的演員們，真是很奇怪的感覺。他們重唱那些熟悉的歌，讓我憶起當年的心境感覺，真真覺得時光不再，我們都走過了太多的路程，已不能再回到那些歲月和心境裏去了。

劉歡的出場把晚會推向高潮，他當天正好受了風寒，說聲音不大找得到，不過會盡全力演唱。他的歌聲依然是那麽激越高昂，充滿了噴薄而出的情感。當他唱道："隻因那彎彎的憂傷，穿透了我的胸膛。。。" 那一瞬間我的胸膛也被一種情感穿透了。觀眾席裏發出震耳欲聾的掌聲和喧囂，希望他能加唱一首，再一首。。。

晚會結束時，那首熟悉的歌又響起來，提示人們已是散場的時候。我的眼睛腫脹著，依戀著那一刻，所有的演員都上台來，花團錦簇，笑意盈盈地，很有些節日的氣氛。我退場時看到童安格在台上走來走去，和人交談，不禁有一點奇怪，是不是真的？十幾年前我熱衷於收集他的磁帶時再也想不到會這樣近距離地望著他。

回到杭州和同學聚會時，有人提起這場晚會，很多人都在電視上看到轉播。我的一個朋友說：鏡頭搖向觀眾席，看到很多人揮動熒光棒，我當時還想你會不會在當中。沒想到，我真的在當中，還被搞得極其懷舊。

這世上的事，真的很有意思。誰說得準呢。

[明亮]

是這樣的，這些明星就在身邊是感覺很奇怪。我也最喜歡的“壟上行",很田園的歌曲。蔡琴的歌是試音響的時候常聽的，我還以為就我們有這習慣呢。原來她本人是這樣的，也有些失望。聽了這麽多的老歌，真好。

[盈袖2006]

神在阿堵中：也去看了你的新文，好像也是感慨多多，等著看下文。杭州變了很多，開始有大城市的味道了，主題鮮明要做休閑城市。父親老了，身體也不好。讓我很難受

玄米：櫻花開了嗎？我這次很可惜沒有看到

小麥子：我看到蔡琴，真的也挺失望的。

縱然平行： I know exactly what you are trying to express since I do have similar experience. Music plays an important part in my life. It stimulates me, inspires me and in occasions it calms and soothes me. Honestly speaking I can hardly imagine a life for me without music, books and computers.They are the tunnels that connect our hearts to those outside in the world and along the human history.

冰妹妹：謝謝你在我檔案裏的留言，你很有天才啊。

[ice3]

時光飛逝~彈指一揮間啊~ :((

[縱然平行]

Welcome back and hope you are doing ok after changing pace. Life, as it may have its own rhymes, hectic or not at sometime eventually should be return normal when daily routines settle in -:).

I’d agree with you that some songs or voices or music scores we listen, heard or played at certain points of our life have left "eternal" marks in our memories. When we’d encounter them again willingly or unwillingly our dormant past would be awakened suddenly. And we’d often be compelled to relive or undergo those special moments one more time, either joyful or agonizing, to that matter.

Sometimes I felt that our lives would be made of a string of distinct sounds, each link on this ever-grow chain might embed some codes and capsule a slice of preserved time within until the day is being revealed again to allow us to re-exam ourselves under new lights.

Recently, I found myself to listen Sarah Brightman’s recent CD “DIVA- The single collection” repeatedly. Obviously, her fantastic voice which features three-octave vocal range and extends to an E above Soprano C combined with her singing style is treat for me after a day of stressful work, but, it is not just voice or songs that I familiar with but because the music has made the connection of my past and present. That was the year of 1995 I was a college student in an university where I was very unsatisfied with my life. For instance, the classes I took were boring and professors are dull and uninspiring; a girl I dated was not being proved by my parents just because of her social gentry. My daily escape consisted of playing computer games or music instruments or reading non-textbooks. Till one day I received a CD as a gift, my perspective towards to future changed. The CD was Sarah Brightman’s album named “Fly”. It was not just her singing voice frequently soothing my nerves while I was studying or amusing myself it was that the music clicked in my mind and led me to think about potentials lied ahead and prompted me to made decisions which have been productive. As my music taste was shifted to more contemporary spectrum with time goes her voice was long gone as I thought it should be. Yet, last Nov., by chance, when I was in a music store to buy some CDs her newly released album caught my eyes. Nowadays, as loads and responsibilities at work are seemingly devouring my time and me alive without my consent-:), the songs in Sarah Brightman’s DIVA are able to bring me back to my “restless” period and at same time propelled me forward in other sense . The difference is that this time around, the things would wake me up in the middle night is no longer to bear remote resemblance as they were 12 years ago. However, I know, no matter what would be I will go though peacefully as I did.

Sometime, as people say one needs to face the music. Why not, I’d add “bring it on to stimulate us”.

Enjoy the holiday.

[小麥子小麥子]

從你的字裏常看見, 自己的心情.
蔡琴, 真的? 小小的受點打擊.

請好好休息!

[玄米]

盈袖好。調整好了吧,等著看呢。

[神在阿堵中]

你好！盈袖，

你也回來了。杭州的山還是那麽秀美嗎？西湖還是那麽溫柔嗎？老父親還是那麽硬朗嗎？

我也剛到，才寫了第一篇。慢慢來。