E是我們那裏最早發家致富的一批人，早早就看上進口彩色電視機，裝上家用電話。我們小的時候一堆小孩兒擠在他家看電視，早年的經典電視劇和春節聯歡都是和E一家一起看的。E喜歡小賭，有時輸點兒有時贏點兒。到後來，聽人們說他技術高超，贏了不少錢。每年春節回家都在偷偷摸摸的賭，有人勸他戒賭，有人盼他賭，每個人都有自己的小算盤。
這次回去聽說E最後一把玩大了，輸了三十多萬；回家老婆不算，哭天搶地的數落他。E腹背受敵，當夜中風半癱了。等能扶著輪椅站起來，E央求老婆推著他去賭場看看，隻是賭場沒人再給他讓座了。東山再起，隻能是在夢中了。
想起《猜火車》裏頭的那句台詞：Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed- interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit- crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats you have spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that?
RENTON: I chose not to choose life: I chose something else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who need reasons when you've got heroin?一個個小選擇構成了一個人的命運：選擇抽煙，選擇喝醉，選擇垃圾食品，選擇晚睡晚起，選擇逃避，選擇把生命浪費在不重要無意義的事情上。。。盡管旁人反複提醒勸解，盡管自己心裏也明白其中利弊，就是過不了當下這一關。
要是能重新選擇就好了，就像電影裏頭說的那句：不如我們從頭來過。可惜沒有如果，所有的改變隻能從現在開始。
