流浪日記
行走於夢境中，有關流浪的夢
今天和朋友說起來當個男人不容易，又想起來“Weatherman”裏Michael Caine對兒子說的話“To get anything a value, you have to sacrifice. The hard thing to do and right thing to do are usually the same thing. Nothing that has meaning is easy. Easy doesn’t enter to a grown up life.”
那個時候Nicolas Cage演的weatherman正是在內外交困的節骨眼上。想和前妻和好，但總是爭吵；女兒超重，被別人欺負；兒子要戒毒，後來還差點被流氓誘拐；父親診斷出有癌症；自己則經常在街上被人扔東西砸，因為自己是個weatherman。可同時自己的事業又有很好的機會，可以去紐約一個年薪上百萬的工作。這麽多扯不清理還亂的事情，沒有一件是簡單的，怎麽辦？ Cage把絕望和困惑清楚地寫在臉上。
關鍵時刻還是需要父親來指點一條明路，因為 “People always look after their kids, no matter how old” ---- “In this shit life, we must chunk something.”
是啊，對成年人來說，要承擔無數的責任和壓力，沒有那件事是簡單的，有的事能做好，有的事就是不行，甚至自己做了很大的努力甚至犧牲還是不行。那這時候，隻有放棄一些，把自己會做的，特別是拿手的事情先做好。在複雜的生活裏，要先想清楚自己的能力，自己的位置，不管以前曾經想過成為什麽樣的人，現在是要做自己。
“I remember once, imagine what life could be like, what I’ll be like. I picture all the qualities, strong positive qualities that people can pick up on across the room. But as time passed, it never became the qualities I actually had. And all the possibilities I phased, the sorts of people I could be, all them got reduced every year, fewer and fewer, until finally they got reduced to one, to who I am. And that’s who I am.”
