Looking

I am searching for you constantly
Yet due to the lack of long term memory
I could not have the reservoir of you
right there ready for me to fetch
I am pushing for nothing sometimes
anything literally
You become my cloud in my sky
of any shape of any sort
taking all the reflections
that something never reaches
I am more than blessed
You are more than lucky
We have that pre-life chemistry
that could not be taught by Chemistry
yet I had a chemistry major
that has nothing to do with you?