孕初期 (0-3)個月

We started trying in mid-March, 2007.  I was anxious as hell.  I couldn't stop thinking that I could just be the one shot wonder, but no luck in the 1st first and I got quite disappointed.  In April, I went back to China for 2 weeks and came back and kept trying again.  Well, still no luck for the 2nd month and I actually got so neurotic that I thought I had an early miscarriage, because my period was really heavy that month. I was in such panic and distress that I called my ob-gyn right away.  She must think I was crazy and told me "It's just your period."  Well, I was so psycho that I just didn't quite believe her at the time.  Oh, well, I kept trying in the 3rd month.  Oh, by the way, my period is very abnormal.  It comes every 28-45 days, so lots of doctors told me I might not get pregnant easily.  So, please do not trust any doctors until you've tried yourself.  After countless tries in my 3rd month, my boobs started feeling heavy and full along with some light stomach cramping.  I thought "Oh, well, probably my old friend will come soon!" or "Am I pregnant???"  I am a very impatient person, so I did my first pregnancy test 25 days after my last period.  After 3 minutes, only the test line showed up and there was no 2nd line.  I wouldn't give up.  I waited for another 10 minutes and still no result.  Well, I still didn't give up.  I picked it out from the trash can 3-4 times for the rest of day and the next morning to check and still one line.  Well, I started feeling disappointed again and I told my husband if I didn't get pregnant after 6-month of trying, I would go and see a fertility specialist.  Another week passed and my period still didn't come, but as I said before, my period has been abnormal all my life, so I really didn't know what's going on.  My boobs still felt heavy and full and I also got a little funny twitching in my belly.  Hmm...I kept thinking, "Will I get lucky this time???"  I was a little crazy that I did the test on a pregnancy test that's already expired for 2 years, because I didn't want to waste it...haha...I waited patiently. An extremely blurry 2nd pink line came out after 5 minutes, but it was extremely hard to tell if it was even there or not.  Oh, maybe I thought of having babies so much that I started hallucinating???  Actually I did buy lots of pregnancy tests, so I decided to give another try tomorrow.  I purposefully didn't go to bathroom after work and rushed home to pee on my pregnancy test strip.  The miracle happened after 3 minutes, a light color, but definitely obvious 2nd pink line immerged.  OMG, u cannot believe how excited I was at the time.  My husband was still not back from work, so I called my best girl friend first to tell her the good news.  Of course she was happy for me, but she also didn't expect me to get pregnant this soon.  My husband came back an hour later and he was certainly really happy for me, but he was already prepared to see this coming for a while.  It's not like something that's totally unexpected.  Yeah, I have to say I am totally proud of myself that as a 30-year-old woman with extremely irregular periods, it only took me 3-month to pregnant!  I read in books, the average conception time for 30-year-old women is 7-month.

Now I just want to say how lucky I am that I had no morning sickness in my first 3-month of pregnancy.  I've got normal appetite and eat only healthy food most of the times.  So far, I haven't gained any weight at all, but I am not too worried about it, because my mom told me her belly didn't show until she was 6-month pregnant.  I believe it will be much easier for me to give birth naturally if I have a smaller baby, but of course it doesn't mean I will deprive myself from eating all the good food and nutrients.  As my doctor recommended, my goal is to gain approx. 25 pounds at the end of my pregnancy.  

Although I was feeling completely fine physically, I was quite moody and could get angry easily during my first 3 months.  My mood got significantly better after the test result came out for the Down Syndrome 2 weeks ago.  My ratio was 1/27500.  I was so happy that I couldn't kept my mouth shut.  Of course, I still get nervous and stressed out about the next 6 months constantly, but I guess it's normal for all the 1st-time moms.  What concerns me the most is how to raise my baby after he/she is born.  Oh well, for now, let me just focus on the present and not to stress too much about the future!

All right, this is pretty much the complete story of my first 3 months.  I will post another article after my 2nd trimester.  Oh, by the way, my writing might sound really wordy and messy in this diary, but I like to write them down to keep myself posted and I also want my baby to read it he/she grows up:) 

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I felt the same way when we tried to get pregnant with my second daughter. My first daughter was an accident. I think relaxing is the key to get pregnant.