總有一些美讓我們沉迷，總有一些事讓我們感動

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總有一些美讓我們沉迷，總有一些事讓我們感動

By Water posted this on the Talk Box of BYJ's official home
December 5, 2006 
韓譯英：Joanne (Quilt)
中文: 唯俊  kokoo (www.onlybyj.com)

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Dear Markus nim，非常感謝你的文章。

（人們）為什麽喜歡BYJ？你問過這個，對吧。在我成為他的影迷之後，也一直問自己。為什麽我會喜歡這個人？

看了《冬季戀歌》後我成了一個喜歡他的影迷。在此之前我從來沒有喜歡過別的藝人，也沒有對表演稍加留意。我看了那部電視，恍然如夢—似乎人生從那一刻才真的開始。

我無法理解，也無法解釋發生在我身上的現象。

順便說一句，不僅我自己，很多聲稱是他影迷的人都會沉緬其中，好象身處夢境，抑或被施了魔法，而這樣的過程和症狀無論在哪個國家都非常相似。我對BYJ在冬戀裏展現了一種超越時空概念的普遍（欣賞的魅力）感到驚訝。

那麽，讓我來梳理一下這個問題。

BYJ在冬戀裏的什麽形象讓你沉迷？他到底做了什麽讓你恍如夢遊，著魔一般？

1.總有一些美讓我們沉迷

Minhyeong說愛是沒有理由的。

這我可不同意。“沒有無緣無故的愛，也沒有無緣無故的恨。” 雖然一個人可能不知道何時何地會被某人迷住，不論是幻想還是誤會，但是總是有某些注性的，宿命一樣的事才會喜歡上那個人。

我對他的俊美已經熟視無睹了。因為在我的眼中，他就是美，他的存在本身就是美。

那麽，首先我想談談他的美。

平衡和協調是美的第一旋律。

從BYJ的很多方麵，我領略了完美平衡和精致協調的美學涵義。

首先，他與生俱來的身體條件就非常理想。他的身材比例協調，是典型的模特（素質）。人們看到他的臉，身材，整個身體各部分比例幾近完美。臉和身體，整個看上去，無論哪個部分，也無論從哪個角度，都給人舒服，穩重的感覺。當然，我並不固執地認為他是長得最好看的演員。其實有很多長的很帥的明星。我看比他帥的明星現在有，將來也還會不斷湧現。

我想，BYJ的致命吸引力—也是公開的秘密，是他動態的時候，源自他的舉止和儀態，源自他的談吐。有很多人隻要一開口說話，或者行動起來，他的表現，說話方式或者是舉止，都顯得粗俗淺薄，而他們擺POSE的時候卻象靜物畫般的美妙，不是嗎？與之對應，當他微笑著揮手，當他鞠躬致意，當他邁著沉穩矯健的步伐時，我每次都有眩暈的感覺，每次都感覺被他施了魔法。

是啊。BYJ所有細微的表情，不經意的手勢，隻言片語，都讓女士們著迷，哈哈，他甚至讓老奶奶們陷落。這是因為演技好嗎？如果是的話，為什麽這個世界上無數的女性也象這樣被其他天才演員的演技迷倒？

BYJ的影迷是阿吉媽（已婚婦女）。一般人會很刻薄地把“阿吉媽”這個詞和他聯係起來。可能是因為他的影迷中阿吉媽FANS比年輕FANS多吧。

果真如此的話，這又是為什麽呢？

青年時代是夢想和判逆交織，起伏不定的時代。憤世嫉俗，標新立異，渴望顛覆。青年時代夢想和現實很難明確分開。因為所有的事，所有的可能性才開始萌芽，他們對夢想沒有特別的渴望。那是自己就是夢想的時代。是嚐試無限可能的時候。年輕人還不會欣賞平衡協調這樣的美。（平衡，協調？……他們要睡著了……）

但是，這個年代的年長的JMS，回歸（家庭），站在鏡子前*（引自著名詩歌），透過BYJ審視他們的夢想，這些夢因著現實的傷痛，或者麻木的生活，被束之高閣，被放棄，甚至遺忘了。他們看到一個好象站在這世界另一端，點綴這個競爭激烈的社會的人存在的可能性，呼喚真正的主宰，這個人從物質和精神上都是強大的。這個存在是純粹而結淨的，散發出典雅優美的芳香（我太誇張了吧？哈哈）。

他們看到了一個無可置疑的啟示：愛，純潔美好的愛，和任何事相比，精神更能呈現真實。

女性帶著悸動的心透過他，看到的是她們的夢想，她們的理想境界。當理想變成了一個詞匯，顯得多麽難堪和幼稚。這些看似幼稚的詞語從他們的嘴裏說出來的時候，帶著坦然和堅定，讓我覺得是多麽的純潔美好，絲毫不覺得可笑。

他的一舉一動充滿了吸引力，讓那麽多人感動不已，餘音繞梁，意猶未盡。

這怎麽可能？

因為他每時每刻的姿態和表現，自始至終的內斂和自省，不是嗎？

因為相由心生，（內心修養投射到行為舉止） 內外統一成為不可分離的整體。

因為從他的表情，舉止和談吐，她們憑著直覺感受到他的外貌和內心兩者的和諧統一產生的美感，盡管當時他們可能還沒有意識到。

他的表情蘊涵著深刻和坦誠，而他的舉止更體現了他的恰如其分的美和高貴。從他的言談舉止，透出他的質樸率真，絕無浮躁虛華之感，從內心散發出馨香，這是BYJ獨有的氣質。

從他某些細微的動作，不經意的姿勢，和言談中看出，他的自律，也反應出他精致，敏銳和細致的個性。

試想完美的外在表現是基於一個天point of contact平木條尾端的刻度板上，他的內在修養要在另一端保持平衡，從兩者的交匯點蔓延開來。（這句太拗了，俺不確定對不對—SKO注。)

（也許他外在的俊美被放在木製天平一端的托盤裏，而他內在的修養則變成保持平衡的砝碼放在另一端，他的魅力就在他內在和外表的交匯點蔓延開來。- 寶桑）

BYJ的光環滋生於此。


2．總有一些事讓我們感動

即使某位演員在電影電視劇中扮演了一個有魅力的角色，但是其吸引力也很快就過去了。

雖然我們通過作品遇到這樣的演員，也會被吸引了，但是我們也隻是想，“嗯，那個人在那部戲裏挺不錯的。” 我們一般很容易就忘了那個明星和那部戲。但是，BYJ就有很多他稱之為家人的死忠影迷。

為什麽是家人，按他說的，那是無條件信任他的影迷，偶然嗎？

影迷從一開始就無條件信任他嗎？

不！在這個世界上，誰會無條件信任別人？哪怕（相處）很長的時間？

BYJ的死忠FANS是那種從他的言談舉止觀察再觀察，確認再確認的人。

對！我們信任他，是因為我們相信他是值得信任的。

就象我說的，我已經做了差不多三年的鐵杆FANS了。 我讀過去的新聞,老的文章,從中追溯他的過去和現在，他的始終如一讓我驚歎，甚至是震撼。

他總是告訴FANS不要擔心他會怎樣過日子，告訴他們他會努力地生活。在這個世界上，一個活到三十多歲的男人— 三十歲是已經經曆人世滄桑的年紀，還一直在說我會努力生活。在影迷麵前，在公眾麵前他始終都在說這句話，努力生活，好象是在德育課本裏，讓別人看到，也讓自己知道他為理想而活著，他為此而堅守信念，不是嗎？

他談他的夢想，並且為達到那個夢想義無反顧，全力以赴。

在他的人生中，有著宏偉的藍圖，美好的夢想（比如想拍電影，想開創亞洲流，高度關注環保，等等），為實現理想精心規劃。努力向前。

他並不急於求成，而是一步一個腳印的前進，心無旁騖。（拿挑選作品來說，他避免重複和粗製濫造的作品。這也是我們作為FANS的苦惱。我們隻想看到你的臉，別的管不了那麽多！！！）

換句話說，他知道他在做什麽，為什麽做。

他的每一次腳步，很顯然都是在向著自己的夢想邁進，雖然他不會花哩胡鞘地動作，但是在關鍵時刻進退得當。（有人評價他是無法漠視的高峰（原文是“Too big scars to forget”）。比如第二次訪日時在飯店前發生意外，他在新聞發布會上為自己的過失誠懇致歉，通過KEY EAST發展韓流，出席韓流博覽會，等等。）

夢想就是心懷宏偉目標，堅持不懈，一步一個腳印向著目標前進，為了每走一步都更接近目標，他近乎殘酷的鞭策自己，令人驚歎。

他的人生之路同樣體現了融洽和平衡。這也是BYJ做人的一個方麵，並不僅僅局限在表演上，如果他對表演更瘋狂點，那他會比其他任何人做得更好（這是金泰宇在GQ采訪中說的）。

那麽這個胸懷大誌的人平時是什麽樣子呢？

他說他總在思考“一期一會”（的涵義）。（'One chance One time'我翻譯成一期一會，不知道對不對——SKO）

那就是時間一去不回，機會隻有一次。因此，他會盡自己最大的努力過好當前這一刻。換句話說，就是有意義地生活，忠實於每一個“目前”。

話雖普通，可是要完全貫徹到實際生活中並不簡單。至少對我是這樣，我是那種容易迷失自己，無論什麽時候，一旦有機會就想過得更舒服點，懶惰的人。但是他從不讓自己有一刻的鬆懈，無論在片場，影迷簽名會，或者任何一個見到影迷的場合。

他自始至終的謙虛謹慎和深思熟慮，感動了他的影迷。（也是因為過於緊張，他神經緊繃，飽受失眠困擾。）

他不會信口開河，也不會舉止輕浮。至少，他盡力言出必行，甚至發生與他初衷相悖的過失，他也從不找借口推脫責任。

他表現出在現代社會已經逐漸喪失的美德，他的一言一行都賦予這些美德最好的詮釋。

他非常清楚自己的言行的分量，所以始終都很清楚該說什麽，為什麽說，該怎麽做。

要求自己始終如一。
 
他的生活道路朝著理想，朝著夢想進發，追求不懈。

他對理想，對完美的渴望，讓我們深刻理解為什麽他會那麽嚴酷地健身。

他從來沒有隨心所欲地改造他的體型，隻是精心地塑造生來就有著完美比例的身材，通過專業訓練和控製飲食進行嚴格的自我管理，讓人印象深刻。

對此我能怎麽說？

他那健美的身形符合黃金分割原理，他這樣的日常生活也相當和諧穩定，通過鍛煉，他身體的每個部分都強健有力，除去旁枝末節，精心雕琢自己，這可能和他每時每刻，每一步都深思熟慮的性格相符。

和他對身體拋開枝節，全力追求完美一樣，他追求挑戰，力圖超越自我。他在冬戀中展現的致命吸引力和魔法般的魅力，源於他本身的美好，不是嗎？他扮演的這麽美好的角色越多，衝擊力越強，寵愛他的女性就越多。我簡直懷疑冬戀是最大限度展示他的魅力的電視。

僅從外表看，年輕時他的俊美更是光彩奪目。但是在我眼中的BYJ，隨著年齡的增長，他的麵容和每個舉動散發出成熟的芬芳和韻味。（其實在他年輕的時候我還不知道他呢。）

BYJ到現在都一直在進步。《太王四神記》是一部具有轉折點意義，倍受期待的電視，它將再一次深刻展示今天BYJ的發展。

我對他的超凡魅力有著很高的期望，隨著他身心兩方麵逐漸具有王者之氣，新的神話也將給他鑄就。

現在的新新一代，執迷於外表，整容手術猖獗，物欲橫流。

對此BYJ有自己的觀點，他覺得注重培養和訓練內心的人才是真正的美。擁有美的秘訣就是依靠自己的力量超越自己。而公眾從來都不會無視這種美。

透過他，我發現了理想的美好，而我在現實生活中曾輕率地遺棄它，放棄它。其實它是可能實現的。於是我去（實現我的理想）吧。當我看到那些興奮地對著BYJ尖叫的女士們，我覺得很幸福，因為我覺得就象聽到這個時代對理想和夢想充滿著希望的聲音（不論現實怎樣）。

我感謝他，是他讓我有了夢想。
我感謝他，是他讓我有了希望，讓我覺得生命是有意義的。
我告訴你BYJ的內心使我沉迷。

當然，作為鐵杆FANS，繼續保持追星生活，這隻是另一個因素。

因為很多熱情高漲，全力投入的裴迷，真是令人讚歎。

因為這個故事需要其他的篇章。

我會拖到下一次，不敢保證哈。
 
 

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英文原文：

Dear Markus nim, you have asked why we like BYJ, haven't you?
By waterWater posted this on the Talk Box of BYJ's official home.
December 5, 2006

Dear Markus nim. I appreciated your writing very much.

Why (do people) like Bae Yongjoon? You've asked it, haven't you.
It is the question I also ask myself after I became his fan.
Why do I like this person?

Dear Markus nim, you have asked BYJ's fans.
What aspects have you found from him??
What in him has captured you???

I am a fan who came to like him while watching the 'Winter Love Song'.
I have never liked any other entertainer prior to that, nor do I have any eye for acting.
I watched that drama,
I spend dream-like days for a while since that time.
Phenomena that I cannot understand and cannot explain, was happening in myself.

By the way, not only myself, but most of so-called his fans would indulge in him as if they are dreaming or are getting enchanted, and those processes and symptoms are very similar each other regardless of countries. I wonder if BYJ may have shown a universal something that was transcending time and space in the Winter Love Song?

Thus, I will rearranged the question.
What aspect of BYJ in the 'WLS' have you indulged in?
What in him did make you to dream and to get enchanted?

1.There is something in him.

Minhyeong says that there is no reason for love.
I do not agree with that.
One cannot love anyone.
Although one may not know at that time, to be attracted to someone is,
no matter if it was illusion or misunderstanding,
to have seen decisive and fatal something that one likes from that person.

I became blind and deaf at his beaury.

As reflected in my eyes, he was a beauty, itself.

Thus, I would like to start talking with his beauty first.
Balance and Harmony is the chapter one verse one of the beauty.
From many sides of BYJ, I see esthetics of exquisite balance and harmony.

First, physical condition he was born with is beautiful in itself.
Basically, he is the typical model of balance and harmony.
When one sees still face and physical condition, ratio of each part and entire body is almost perfect.
Both Closed up face and shape of body shown in full shot ,
no matter what part and from what angle they shoot, give sense of stability and comfortable feeling visually.
However, I am not insisting that he is the best looking actor.
Actually, there are many stars who are handsome.
I see that handsome stars other than him exist at present and will continue to appear in the future.

As far as I think, BYJ's magic formula, that open secret,
starts in mobile moments when his physical conditions are alive and moving,
that is from his expressions and gestures, and from when he starts talking.
There are people who seem to be mean and superficial from expresions, ways of talking, or behaviors
when they start talking or move, although they are wonderful when they assumes poses like still objects, aren't they?

In contrast to them, when he smiled lightly by slightly raising head up, when he greeted bowing politely,
when he strode with stable steps, I felt dizzy anew in each moment and got enchanted (to him).

That is right. BYJ enchants ladies with each of tiny expression, of small gesture, of one phrase lines.
Ah, he even made grandmothers fall down. Is that because of acting ability? If that is the case, why on the earth do those countless women gett enchanted in group like that by his acting, leaving alone other genious actors with acting power?

BYJ's fans are ajumma(married women).
Mass com would connect word ajumma with him in cynical nuance.
He may possibly have relatively more ajumma fans than young woman fans.
If it is so, why is it?

Youth is period of disorderly dream & rebellion, and whirlwind & raging waves.
Unbalances clashe and shatter making discord, and at times desires destruction.
Youth is not a period when dream and reality are not clearly divided yet.
Because everything is open as possibility, they are not particularly thirsty for dream.
They are generation who themselves are dream. It is time to progress experiments.

Youth would not praise esthetics of balance and harmony.
(Balance and harmony....they get sleepy..)

However.., elder sisters in this era, who returned (home) and are standing in front of mirror* (Quote from famous poem)
saw through BYJ their dreams,
that they put aside, gave up, or forgot as they got hurt from reality
or just left alone halfheartedly.
They saw POSSIBILITY of an existence, who seems to stand at antipode from the world
which is dotted with competition, shouts reality supremacy,
and where material is almighty with evaporated spirit,
the existence tho is pure and clear, and spreading as fragrance of classical grace.
(Am I exaggerating too much? Haha)
They saw a certain suggestion that love, pure love, and more than anything,
spirit can be possible in present reality.
That is, the thing those women saw through him with fluttering heart was
their dream, their ideal world.

An ideal, when it becomes a word, is apt to become embarrassing and childish.
Such lines that were bound to be childish at glance,
in moments they are out going through his lips, approached me as pure beauty not comedy, with truthfulness and with pursuasive power.
His acting has attracting force, moved hearts in many people,
and had lingering sounds and ringing for a long time since then.

How was it possible?

it is because that in each and every moment of his gestures and expressions,
his inner self was drawn up and reflected all the time, isn't it?
It is because deep inner aspect of that man was reflected in his acting,
so that they became unseparably one, isn't it?
It is because that they sensed without knowledge his out side and inside, the balance of those two, and
beauty created from that balance, from his expression, gesture, and way of talking,
although they may not have yet realized themselves at that time, isn't it?

There contained depth & truthfulness to life in his expression,
and beauty of moderation & dignity in his gesture.
From expresion, gesture and talk at each and every moment, there comes out simple, not boisterous or exaggerated, inner fragrance, that is unique to BYJ.
From tiny expression & small gesture, and talks at each and every moment,
his deep well like inner self is drawn up and is reflected delicately, exquisitely, and minutesly.

Suppose that outer appearance of perfect beauty is put on a scale plate in one end of wooden bar of a balance,
his inner fragrance keeps balance by becoming a weight in the opposite end, It spreads from the point of contact where this inner aspect and out side meet...

BYJ's aura stems from here.

2. With what aspect of him, do general fans develope into hard core fans?

Even if a certain actor was an attractive character in film or drama,
that effective period is not generally that long.
Although we meet and get attracted throught works, thinking just 'uh that person was pretty good in that work'
we usually let that star go easily along with the work.

However, for BYJ there are many hard core fans whom he calls so-called family.
Why do family, as he calls, that is
fans who believes him unconditionally, happen?
Have fans unconditionally believed him from the beginnig after all?

No.
In this world, who would believe others unconditionally? Even it is for a long period of time?

BYJ's hard core fans are
people who watched him and CONFIRMED while SEEING, SEEING, and SEEING AGAIN
invariable consistency from his talks and behavior.
That is right. We believe him because
we believe that he is trustworthy person.

As I have said, it is about 3 years for me to become full-scale fan.
From old (news) articles on him, I read tracing back this and that way during that period, to present,
there is surprising, and almost amazing invariable consistency in him.

He always tells fans not to worry about how he would lead his own life, and
tells that he would live hard. In the world, age in which dust of world settled on, a man reaching at the middle of 30,
says consistently I WILL LIVE WELL all the time.
He talks all the time in public in front of fans these words, WILL LIVE WELL,
which seem to be in morals textbook, meaning that he will live ideal life for others to see and for him to think himself,
It is to make sure to himself, isn't it?

He tells his own dream.
And, he showed fierce will and principle to accomplish that dream.

In his life, there are big picture, dream(for example, want to produce films, would like to creat Asia Current,
am greatly interested in environment, etc.) as he pursues and principle to accomplishing this dream.
One step slowerly, but not hurriedly, and he does not make unnecessary extra.(For selection of work, he avoid repeating and mass producing similar works. Thus we fans are in agony. We would like to see your face a little, without condition!!!)

In other words, he knows what he is doing and why he is doing that.
In footsteps he puts foword observing principles to accomplish his own dream, although he would not step forward with dazzling gestures, he has courage of not avoiding in necessary mements.(his remarks of Too big scars to forget, etc,, his attitude of accepting his own mistake in a press conference after an accident in front of hotel during his second official visit to Japan, development of Hallyu contents through Key East, and participation in current Hallyu Expo, etc,)

Bearing a big picture of purpose of his won life, that is dream,
and step by step process to accomplish that,
he shows amazing sense of balance of relentlessly objectifying himself, being distanced by one step.

Because of that his way of life also shows that of harmony and balance.
It is also a aspect of person BYJ, who cannot limit himself in acting alone,
although he can do better acting than any others if he is crazy about acting alone(as told by Kim Taewoo in GQ interview).

What is his appearance of meeting each and every moment for him who has a big picture for his own life?

He told that he lived thinking 'One chance One time'.
That one time would not come but that once time.
That is, (he will) do all hsi best at present moment he is meeting now.
In other word, he is saying conscious life, faithful to present at each moment.

That ordinarily sound talk is not a matter to be slighted at all when it comes to actual practice.
At least for my self, I am a person who strays easily and would like to live more comfortably being lazy whenever I have chance.
However, he never lets go a moment negligently
no matter it is in shooting site, fan autographing session, or in any kind of meeting with his fans.

Through consistently same modesty and meticulous & deeply thoughtful consideration, he MOVES his fans.
(Because of such tenseness, he himself had suffered from sleepless nights from neurosis.)

He would not do single phrase of talk or single behavior carelessly.
At least, he tries to be faithful to hwat he had said, and
even when there is error that is different from what he had intended, he never gives excuse.

He shows virtues, we in modern era are losing, by personifying with his own talks and behavior.
He know well the weight of his talk and behavior, and he always knows well what to say,
why he has to say, and how he has to do by himself.
And he push himself forward continuously like that.

Path of his life progresses toward ideal, dream, that he pursues.
That pursuit of ideal can be definitely read in his will to train his body to the extent to be too severe.
His never satisfying heart to improve his body
added detailedness and exquisiteness to his naturally born body shape in perfect ratio,
by imposing himself strict management of professional exercise and diet.

How can I say it.
When his beautiful body shape in golden section
corresponds to balanced design on general life of himself,
the small muscles in each part of his body that he acquired through exercise,
by exquisitely sculpturing himself by removing unnecessary extras,
may correspond to each and every mement he leads with deep thought and deep consideration.

From his body also, he pursued refined beauty removing unnecessary extras.
He pursues challenge against his own limits.

That attracting power, that magic formula, as shown by him in the drama 'WLS',
was made possible due to such beauty extending all aspects, wasn't it?

The more he plays the characters that maximize such beauty, the stronger that impact, and number of woman who indulged in him also become more. I wonder if the 'WLS' was the drama where he he showed by mzximizing his beauty he had 'in that particular time'.

When inquiring only by outer appearance, his beauty could have been more brilliant during more youthful period.  However, in BYJ as seen in my eyes, mature dim fragrance is getting impregnated more deeply in his face and each gesture as he gets ages.(Actually, I do not know him in his youthful period.)

BYJ is endlessly evolving even now. The 'Tae Wang Sa Shin Gi" is a drama
that is expected as a turning point to strongly expose evolving BYJ of present once again.
I have hig expectation in his charisma, powerful while queit, and mythology to be written a new by hin who became great king literally in both inner aspect and outside.

For current generation at the time, clinging to outer looks, where plastic surgeries are rampant and material is becoming idol.
BYJ suggests many points.
The point that true beauty is a lot for person who cultivates and trains inside of self.
Secret of beauty possessed by him lies on fierce will to overcome himself.
And the public will never miss such beauty at all.

Through him, I discover beauty of ideal that I roughly left behind and gave up in reality,
and that it is possible (to realize dream) in reality.

Thus, I do. While watching women who scream shouts of joy at BYJ,
I feel fortunate because I feel as if I hear voice in this era
that places hope in ideal and dream despite (reality).

I thank him for becoming dream.
And, I thank him for becoming hope that
life is still worth to live.

I told you what inn BYJ I become indulged in.
However, for hard core fans to continuously maintain fan life, there is still another factor.

It is because there are many fans to him who has tremendous passion, and are devoted, and wonderful.
As this story requires another piece of writing,

I will put off to next opportunity that I cannot promise.