let me cool down a little bit

I never feel this terrible. I lost confidence in myself. This is not me.

 Where am I in this world? It is a long jouny to live in this world. A happy childhood became the best time in my life. It is funny to say that, since I am only pass the 30 line. Everytime, my wife asked about my age with a joking voice, I can't answer and I wouldn't answer. I am over 30 years old with nothing. It is a shame. It is not what I was ecpected in my past. But what can I do? With this ugly English writing and funny accent, I can't kick them ass. I will always be a loser. I was not that bad before. I feel being left out from this world. I want to be somebody and want a colorful life. Right now I typed in a 7 year old computer in a small townhouse. Is this my dream? Hell, no.

 

I know, TV program is for stupid losers. Right now I am one of them because I don't have a real thing to do. Please, I don't think writing Resume and Cover letter is a real thing which are full of lying and nonsense. Everybody just judge you by what you said and how you write. Come here, your smart ass, let me beat me by my work, not the word from your US born mouth. Look what you guys have done about the war, what you guys have been done to the economic, what you guys have been done to the IT since 9.11. You kicked a lot of non-citizen out of so-called securirty required position, right now you lost your power to push forward in IT and economic, even in homeland security. How many persons have you got are real terristers? Just a simple example, how can you kill all of ants in your house? If you use all of your time to hold a antgun to kill any ants in any corner in your house, you still have to go outside to kill any ants in your yard. Then other ants beyond your yard will still come to get into your house if you fell into sleep some time. So you will be exhaused in the end and watch ants walking in your house in line. This is exactly what you guys are doing right now. Please give up and find a smart way to solve the problem: clean your kitchen, teach your kids beheave, and leave your garden as a free world to ants. You will find that will give a ant-free house with a relax feeling. Be a good, nice neighbor, enjoy your safe, quiet community.