(on a library computer again, not that I like to comment in English)
We have been "brainwashed" by our mother language, namely, the Chinese language. Specifically for me it is Cantonese. And you have yours.
One's language affects one's perception of reality in a very significant manner. And you can't even pretend not possessing your mother language, or, more precisely, being possessed by your mother language. Trying to have it undone will never work. It has been soaked into your consciousness.
So, Master Donkey, you, have been hopelessly brainwashed.
Never overestimate your independence.