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American poet Li-young Lee once wrote:
All light is late.
Either from a scientific point of view or the level of poetic imagination, it could mean that between what we receive with the naked eye and what we feel with the "Eye of the soul," there is always a great gap.
Looking at a beautiful starry sky, the arriving light is merely the belated obituary of countless stars that “died” hundreds of millions years ago. Hundreds of millions light years away, stars lived and died without us knowing.
The darkness in a night sky and the vastness of a blue sky during the day are not the same as "emptiness," but distance or space. Galaxies and stars that we are unable to see are moving away from us, and they are making Earth, the little ball whose survival depends on the Sun, more and more isolated. If a slight change occurred to the unimaginable gravity in the universe or multiverse, the Earth would either immediately be frozen into an ice ball or melt under the fierce gaze of the Sun.
After numerous “coincidences” and evolution, we human beings came into existence.
And how are we living this Life?
Our mind is filled with “late light” and “belated obituaries” and they make it hard for us to live in the moment. We do not know how to live in the moment because we, knowingly or unknowingly, are troubled by the many already-dead-things, cycles of old thoughts, invisible shackles of unnecessary guilt and a ridiculous sense of insecurity. We have gradually forgotten that we, body and soul, are also stars of luminosity and emotions.
The belated obituary continues to travel towards us without a return address.
Love, too, operates like the synchronization between two celestial entities.
The kind of gravity between two souls is also a miracle of the Universe, but how are we perceiving and appreciating this miracle?
We describe Love using words like disconnect, distant or cold the way astronomers depicting and deciphering planets that move around the Sun: dislocation and tracking bias, distances that cause fatal changes in temperature and so forth.
When two planets or souls are forced together against the law of gravity, the “love” between them also runs against the law of the Universe. Our human mind can only reach and embrace a limited space both in the sky and the galaxy of our emotional universe. The orbit on which our body and soul move is often led to deviation caused by our subjective bias.
Like the formation of galaxies in the Universe, a full and beautiful life is also made possible by many coincidences.
Humans can not create coincidences; we are the fortunate beneficiaries of coincidences. Imagine a star, once being hit and deviates from its own orbit, might disappear into the bottomless darkness forever, or it might be able to enter the orbit where it belongs in the existing gravity and magnetic fields.
A human body is sometimes motionless or “static” if we want it to be, but not our mind, which is an infinite universe in its own right. Our chaotic thoughts shuttle back and forth on various orbits and they often collide with other planets. Sometimes our mind could lose its direction and unable to find its way back to the original orbit.
Stars, planets and humans alike, we simply know nothing about where the source of the ultimate gravitation comes from. It is beyond our imagination to even “guess” where and why galaxies are moving away in all directions from our own galaxy and our tiny planet.
When I think of the deaths and births of stars hundreds of millions light years away, the trajectory to which every individual life belongs and the miracle of love with hearts’ synchronization, they seem to tell me that a human life is also a luminous entity. In the vast universe of the Soul, we are experiencing various attractions and repulsions with the little light and energy we possess and we long to find the orbit of our own as well as that perfect light no matter how transient it is.
To live in the moment, we should remind ourselves that, at least, we haven’t become “late news” yet.
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詩人李立揚寫過：
所有的光
都是遲到的。
無論從科學的角度，還是詩的意象層麵，我們肉眼所接收到的與我們的“靈魂之眼”所感受的總是存在著極大的誤差。
仰望美麗的星空，無數的星光不過是億萬年前“死去”的星辰向我們發來的、遲到的訃告。還有億萬光年之外的星體，它們的生與死我們根本不知道。
夜空中的黑暗和白晝裏浩淼的藍天並不是“空”的，而是距離。那些我們人類肉眼無力發覺的和慢慢離太陽係遠去的星體使得地球－－這個靠太陽生存的一顆小球－－越來越孤獨。如果宇宙中那難以想像的萬有引力稍有變化，地球就會立即熔化或變成一個被速凍的冰球。
無數的演變與“巧合”才有了我們。
而我們又是如何生存的呢？
活在此刻之所以難，是因為我們的腦空間被太多“遲到的光”和“晚來的訃告”充斥。我們不知如何把握此刻因為我們有意或無意地被早已死亡的東西－－循環的思維、無形的束縛、多餘的負疚感、可笑的不安全感等困擾著，我們逐漸忘卻了自己也是一個發光體、一個情感的星體。
從遙遠的過去翩翩來遲的訃告是沒有“回信地址”的。
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愛，也是兩個“星體”之間的同步運行。
兩顆心靈之間的“萬有引力”也是宇宙中的奇跡，但是，我們又是如何認識和嗬護這個奇跡。
我們用“錯位”、“疏遠”、“冷漠”等等描繪愛，正如天文學家描述圍繞太陽運轉的行星一樣：軌道的錯位偏差、距離的遠近對溫度的影響等。當不同軌道的兩顆星違背萬有引力而強扭在一起時，那樣的愛就違背了宇宙的運行法則。隻不過我們人類的心智隻能覺察到很有限的空間，包括星空和情感的人類空間，而主觀的偏差更導致了我們運行軌道的偏離。
生命中的美好也許就像宇宙中星係形成一樣充滿了巧合。
人類無法“製造”巧合，幸運的人不過是巧合的受益者。想像一顆曾經受創的星星在偏離軌道後，有可能永遠地消失在宇宙無盡的黑暗裏，也有可能在存在的萬有引力和磁場中重新找到適合自己的軌道。
一個靜止的人的肉體裏，大腦是一個無盡的寰宇，無法靜止。思維會在混亂的軌道上穿梭，與其它星體碰撞，甚至無法找到返回屬於自己的軌道的方向。
人和星體一樣，根本不知道那萬有引力的源頭究竟在哪兒。
億萬光年之外的死亡和誕生、屬於我們每個人生命的軌跡、心靈同步時所發生的愛的奇跡都在告訴我們：我們的生命是個發光體，無論它多麽的短暫，我們都在以自己的微小的光線和能量在浩瀚的心靈宇宙中，在與他人的相互吸引和排斥的同時尋找著屬於自己的軌道和完美的、曾經存留過的、光的痕跡。
但現在，我們還不是“遲到的消息。”
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