Remember in order to forget

It has been 9 days since I last talked with B. After his withdrawal for 6 months, my passion started to fade gradually. Each time when I made love with him, I have the feeling that it might be the last one. Maybe 9 days ago it was really our last time of being together. For 6 months he did not write a single word that he loves me, even though in the past month, he started to tell me he loves me. I no longer have any tears when I look at him. He is more like a stranger to me now. I cannot imagine we used to be so close to each other, so much in love with each other, and missing each other so terribly when we were apart, but that feeling is indeed gone.