雞鳴寺櫻花
走過的路，路上的景，同行的人
兩天前老媽接到她大姐的電話，電話那頭的她，說想我老媽了，問我老媽什麽時候去看她。老媽說明年去看她。
重慶放開後不久她得新冠了，之前她的身體一直很好，還常常打麻將贏錢。現在她在醫院裏好幾天了，希望她可以很快恢複。
過了兩天老媽又打電話，想詢問一下她大姐的情況，老姨還在醫院裏。三表哥說二表哥已經走了，老媽沒有回味過來是什麽意思。 過了好久才知道老姨的二兒子在今年的五月就走了，但一直沒有告訴95歲的老姨和我媽。 說二表哥是鼻癌複發，他三十多年前得過治好了。
在我們小時候，兩家都在同一個區。二表哥初中畢業就去下鄉了，在我上高中的時候，他回到城市後，給領導開車。他的圓滑世故讓我們和他有一種距離，彼此來往不多。
許多年沒有見麵，最後一次是在老爸病重的那個夏天，二表哥和大表哥一起來看老爸。我突然發現原來和他們在一起聊天的時候，真心是非常愉快的事情，說說小時候的往事，已經沒有了曾經糾結於那個久遠年代的感情。二表哥看起來很健康，還是很健談的。
想想其實我們那個年代，真的有些讓人懷念的地方。普通人家都會有三或四個小孩子，放養在無人知曉的世界裏。許多人家因為各種原因，一起來到陌生的城市。過年過節的時候，大人小孩自然會聚集在一起，聽他們講記憶裏的故事。 小孩子在一起的日子，就是一個小社會，讓彼此在競爭當中，磨練了意誌。
懷戀那些沒有遮擋，沒有溫室的日子裏的你。
[The second cousin is gone] Two days ago, my mother received a call from her eldest sister. She on the other end of the phone said that she missed my mother and asked when my mother would visit her. Mom said to see her next year.
Not long after Chongqing was unlocked, she got the Covid-19. Before that, she was in good health and often won money playing mahjong. Now she has been in the hospital for several days, hope she can recover soon.
Two days later, my mother called again, wanting to inquire about the condition of her elder sister, but the old aunt was still in the hospital. The third cousin said that the second cousin had left, and my mother didn't understand what it meant. It took a long time to find out that my aunt's second son passed away in May of this year, but they never told my 95-year-old aunt and my mother. Said that the second cousin had a recurrence of nasal cancer, and he was cured more than 30 years ago.
Both our families were in the same district when we were kids. My second cousin went to the countryside after graduating from junior high school. When I was in high school, he drove for the leader after returning to the city. His tact and sophistication put us at a distance from him, and we didn't have much contact with each other.
I haven't seen each other for many years. The last time was in the summer when my father was seriously ill. The second cousin and the first cousin came to see my father together. I suddenly discovered that when I was chatting with them, it was really a very pleasant thing. Talking about the past when I was a child, I no longer had the feelings of being entangled in that long time ago. The second cousin looks healthy and is still very talkative.
Thinking about our time, there are really some nostalgic places. Ordinary people will have three or four children, and they will be raised in a world that no one knows. Many families came to strange cities together for various reasons. During the Chinese New Year, adults and children will naturally gather together and listen to stories from their memories. The days when children are together is a small society, allowing each other to hone their will in competition.
I miss you in those days when there was no shade and no greenhouse.
