07/03, Friday, 30 min Yoga Flow.
It is the day before the 4th of July. I felt very alone, edgy and no anchor to grab on. Recognizing this is very helpful. In stead of staying in the "dark cloud", I decided to reached out to friends and just say hi. Some friends got back to me right away and some did not respond untill they were available and some have not said a thing yet, I guess they were busy and did not bother to say anything at the time and afterward.
I felt much better later and did party shopping for the 4th. We also started a new weekend game. I am so grateful for my family and friends.
I often feel this kind of "dark cloud" feelings and sometimes it is hard to shake it off. I am thinking I will just need to adjust my relationship to these feelings. Recognize these feelings or "low states", respect that they show up and watch it without judgement. Maybe investgate how I feel it and where I feel it, what is the "dark state/dark cloud" thing, then let it go. Do the next thing that normally I would do with/without the "dark state/dark cloud". Very often, when I take my focus off myself in the situation, things become so much easier. It is just about celebration, it is just about getting together, it about all of us! All of us. We are all connected and the unity makes us so happy and so comforted. We all care each other. It is not about me. It is about us. Be part of the community. Relax! Enjoy the friendship! Love my neighbors, my family, my friends. It is not about me. It is about us. Lose myself and be part of the human connection.
That is beautiful! LOVE! NAMASTE! (The light in me solutes/recognizes the light in you.)