Round and around

I was little sad (?) yesterday when I did not see the crane I made in his office, I thought he finally throw it away during the remodel. In fact, he kept it, it was still on his desk. I am gradually losing the ground since I care more how he feel about me then he did I beleive. He also mentioned V, "why not ask him to drive for you"? Was he upset about V go down S with me?! Silly me. Why can't you see I only like you? Care about you? But why I can chat with V for two hours over all kinds topic, and you and I can't even fill the 30 min drive? I am looking forward to the trip, yet very nervrse too. We will spend 3 days away and together, can't be childish with him.