一個害羞的小女孩

《A shy little girl 》

— By MeiQi Zhang

I\'ve played a lot of roles.
At first, I was a shriveled, thin and needing infant;
Then there was a shy little girl ,
Who does not like to go to school,
Who does not want go back home.

Then there was the young lady,
Singing a sad ballad of my life.
Then I became a married woman,
Full of strange thoughts and desires,
Eager to be strong and have no elders,
Telling me what to do.
I don\'t want to make trouble,
But I also am not willing to be suppressed.
Even in the face of death I will never compromise.

And then I met Jeff,
He miraculously removed all my armor,
Making me a truly new girl.
Like a burning stove,
Around a gathered group of warm friends.

And now I have become a mother,
Became plumper and plumper,
Wearing glasses when mending,
White hair mixed in with my black silk,
Yet all the sounds of the past are well preserved.

Sometimes when I get mad,
I still forget my age,
My manly voice,
Mixed with a childish impish sound,
Sometimes it\'s whispered,
Like a whistling.

The last scene is rejuvenation.
This crazy and wonderful mess was me for a long time.
To be held in the palm of his hands by my lover,
Crying and laughing in Jeff’s arms.
Being held in the palm of his hand,
Filling in for the lack of a childhood love
One should have fromventually a mother and father.

At some point I will be old,
it sometimes feels sooner than later.
I lose my teeth,
I lose my memory,
I eventually lose everything!
No teeth, no eyes, no taste, yes everything.

《一個害羞的小女孩》

我演過很多角色。
起初，我是一個幹癟瘦弱、
需要幫助的嬰兒；
然後是一個害羞的小女孩，
不喜歡上學也不想回家。
然後變成了一個年輕的女士，
唱著我生命中悲傷的歌謠。

後來我成了已婚女子，
充滿了奇怪的想法和欲望，
渴望堅強，目無長輩，
我不想惹麻煩，
但也不願意被壓製。
即使麵對死亡，
我也決不妥協。

然後我遇到了傑夫，
那個苦苦尋覓的另一半，
他奇跡般地把我的盔甲都拿走了，
讓我成為一個真正的女人，
就像燃燒的火爐，
圍著一群熱情的朋友。

現在我成了一個母親，
變得越來越豐滿，
修補時戴眼鏡，
青絲裏夾雜了白發，
然而，
所有過去的聲音都保存得很好。
當我生氣的時候，
還是會忘記自己的年齡，
男子漢般的聲音裏，
夾雜著孩子氣的頑皮，
有時會輕聲細語，
像未成年的小女孩，
有時像個壞小子一樣惡作劇，
然後吹著口哨若無其事地離開。

最後一幕是返老還童，
這個瘋狂而美妙的混合體，
被我的愛人握在他的手心裏，
在他的懷裏哭笑不得。
填補了童年愛的缺失,
每個孩子都應該有一對真正的父母，
滿懷慈悲與愛意，
在養育女兒的同時，
我的愛人給予這個機會，
讓我又做了一次女兒。

總有一天我會變老，
也許是明天，
也許是許多年以後，
我的牙齒掉了，
眼睛不再清澈，
失去了記憶和視力，
也嚐不出美食的味道，
最終會失去一切.
我會笑著回歸於塵土，
我沒有後悔活過這一生……