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從衝繩回來已經是第二天, 大腦還處於混沌狀態. 本來是想過個安逸的周末, 談一場無風無浪的成年人的有節製的戀愛, 結果最後又是弄成8點檔的瓊瑤戲, 起伏迭蕩, 精彩萬分, 看得我自己都目瞪口呆. 我和Kevin, 還真是冤家, 好的時候好得不得了, 甜蜜得讓我自己都覺得有點牙酸, 不好的時候, 一個哭, 一個叫, 又鬧又哄, 然後瘋狂飛車的趕飛機, way too dramatic... 我這把年紀再這麽和他折騰幾個回合, 恐怕離仙逝也不遠, 一時間還真拿不定主意, 要愛情, 還是要命???
周五一到下班時間, 我拎著行李如逃跑一般的竄出辦公室, 直奔機場. 我現在一提坐飛機都害怕, 總是覺得要遲到, 趕不上. 我的飛行旅程不是很愉快, 旁邊的位置上坐了對couple, 從起飛開始, 那個女的就沒停過嘴, 一直在用極高極annoying的聲音講著什麽, 我即便戴著耳機也可以聽到她的聲音. 在我幾乎忍無可忍而要告訴她閉嘴的時候, 她終於停下來, 和她男朋友手牽著手開始睡覺, 我替她男朋友默哀, 都說一個女人等於500隻鴨子, 他找的這個頂5000隻, LOL. 衝繩天氣很差, 下雨, 飛機遲了大概10多分鍾, Kevin早就到了, 等了將近半小時, 一直開著車在機場外麵兜圈, 機場門口是出租車和BUS的專用線, 私人車不可以停. 重逢的喜悅被壞天氣破壞了很多, 我把行李和自己扔進車, 一切很自然, 似乎我們從來沒有分開過一個多月那麽久. 晚飯, 聊天, Kevin said, "its kinda weird that you are here again", "Fine, I could leave if thats werid", "Come on... you know what I mean, I mean it seems that you have never left." That must be my ghost, LOL. 第一個晚上, 一切正常, 重逢, 甜蜜, 無爭執.
周六, 我很早醒來, 天氣似乎還不錯, 至少沒有下雨. 想出去跑步, Kevin嘟囔著, "be careful, there are some guys who would harass jogging girls", 然後把我抱得更緊, 潛台詞是說, stay with me, I dont want you to check out or be checked out by other cute guys, LOL. 一直睡到中午, Kevin餓得無法繼續睡下去了, 這樣的時候他才會起來, 我真的覺得他腦袋裏可能有蟲, 專門讓人昏睡那種. 早餐兼午飯, 然後開車一路向北, 他說要去衝繩島的最北端, 我也不知道那裏有什麽好看的, 反正他開車, 去哪兒我都無所謂. 一路上, 為了放誰的ipod又是一場"撕殺", 我要聽Linkin Park, 他說Linkin Park is gay, 他喜歡的那個hard rock band聽起來就好象噪音, 讓人有種跳下車, 拿刀剁了誰的衝動. Kevin搖頭晃腦的自得其樂, 我白了他一眼, 轉頭看車外的風景. 陰天, 多雲, 遠處海和天幾乎是一種顏色, 沒有分界線, 這種感覺很奇妙. 偶爾太陽會露出一些, 幾縷太陽的光柱照在遠處的海麵上, 在烏雲的背景裏顯得格外耀眼, 好象[GHOST]裏男主角升天堂的那個場麵, 靈魂隨著那些光芒上升... 衝繩島的最北端, 當年衝繩島失守的時候, 很多人在這裏跳崖"自殺", 據說很多是被迫的. 懸崖下麵, 濕冷的礁石, 沉默的海, 陰天讓這裏的風景更加蕭瑟. 散落著幾塊石碑, 我翻譯給Kevin聽, 有的是紀念體育大會的, 有的是紀念曾在衝繩居住過的詩人的, 還有一個是紀念衝繩回歸日本, 在美軍的若幹年占領之後. 當然, 形容占領軍的詞自然不會是褒義詞, Kevin一副很驚奇的表情, 說他以為衝繩人喜歡美國人超過日本本土的人, 我心想, 難道他們會在你麵前講討厭美國人?! 開車回去, 又要兩個小時, 衝繩島還是蠻大的, 夕陽西下, 天空的雲都染成粉紅色, 很美麗. 接下來, 晚飯, 回家, Kevin在陽台上支上躺椅, beers, music(my ipod!!! cos he forgot his ipod in car, LOL), 很愉快的周六夜晚.
周日, 大戰即將爆發. 又是睡, 到了中午, Kevin也不要起來, 總是說"再躺30分鍾", 我餓得幾乎要咬他的鼻子. 去廚房裏轉了一圈, 冰箱裏隻有幾打啤酒, 和tomato juice, 那個"惡心"的東西倒找我錢, 我都不要喝. 最後在我的包裏發現了一袋candy, 拿到臥室, Kevin半閉著眼和我"虎口奪食". 一直這麽耗到下午4點, 他老人家終於覺得該起來了, 估計是他也餓得受不了, 於是, 我們去吃turkish food. 餐廳就在他家附近, 走路不過10分鍾, 他還是要開車, 我真搞不懂, 走幾步就那麽難???!!! 難得外麵沒有下雨, 空氣清爽, 我真受不了一直悶在空調房間和汽車裏, 那種化學清新劑的味道讓我覺得快要抓狂, 我對氣味一向很敏感. 後來和一個朋友講這件事, 朋友是美國長大的德國人, 他說, 這是美國文化的一個部分, 哪怕5分鍾的路程, 也要開車. 這倒是可以解釋為什麽美國人總是在減肥, 卻仍有那麽多大胖子, 都是坐出來的! Kevin雖然現在很fit, 那是得益於他的工作, 在jet上爬上爬下的, 胖了幹不了, 將來等他退居文職, 按他的"拚命吃拚命睡又不走路"的生活習慣, 早晚長成一胖子.
吃過飯, 已經將近6點. 我說我們在海邊散散步, 他說他不喜歡走路, 要回家chilling. By chilling, what he means is that, sitting in front of TV, but not watching, cos he would switch all channels with remote control, and just staring at the TV, with his brain totally blank! I know exactly what he would do, 我覺得我已經忍不住要爆發了. 但是, 我不想吵架, 於是, 在10分鍾之內收拾好東西, 對Kevin說, "alright, can you send me to the airport now? or help me to call a cab? then you can chill as much as you want, I would never bother." "Whats wrong?" 他一臉不解的表情, see, that is the problem, he never knows whats wrong! "Nothing wrong, I just wanna go home, then I can do whatever I wanna do, and you can stay here, do whatever you wanna do, by YOURSELF!" I said. "Ohhh... you really dont like turkish food, do you?" Kevin似乎恍然大悟, 我卻快要暈倒, IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE TURKISH FOOD!!! dumb ass... "There is something you wanna do, but I dont, and I did them for you, but you would never do anything I want. Its always ME who is compromising, and I am exhausted! I cant do this any more... maybe this is not a good idea, we rushing too much, and we dont know each other well enough..." 我忍無可忍, 終於說了出來. Kevin一臉難以置信的表情, "you dont want to see me any more???" "I dont know... I really dont know..." 眼淚再也止不住, 我真的不知道. "I am sorry... but I did something for you, yesterday, I drove to the north cape, its for you, its a long drive, not so fun, but I did it for you..." 我心裏想, 我可從來沒說過我想去那裏, 是你決定的, 但是沒有說出口, I changed to another point, "this morning, how many times I told you that I was starving, that doesnt mean anything to u? do you really care about me?" "Sorry... cos I wasnt so starving yet, I thought we could go to eat when we both starving..." "HA! listen to yourself, you wanna eat only when you starving, then what about me??? you are so self-concentrated!" Kevin被我駁得無話可說, "you are right, I was a bit selfish", "Not a bit! you always think about yourself, you wanna eat, you wanna sleep, you want this, you want that... its always about YOU!" 我一邊哭, 一邊"控訴", Kevin的表情象隻受傷的小狗, 可憐兮兮的看著我, "I am sorry, so sorry... ohhhh, you make me wanna cry too..." 我的指責還沒有完, "And you take all my efforts for granted, never appreciated. you are way too spoiled, I am looking for a life partner, and we should be on the even level, if you want someone who spoils you all the time, go find somebody else, I cant do that." Kevin繼續低頭認錯, "right, maybe I am a bit spoiled, I didnt think how much effort you made, and I will check my schedule, next time I go to tokyo", "nah... what you would do in tokyo? sleep again?" "No, I can clean your room for you..." 這一句讓我破涕為笑, Kevin is good at this, since he was a little boy, screwing things up, then being cute and sweet to make people forgive him. Kevin繼續說, "I will change, might not be able to change right away, but give me some time, weeks, months, I will..." 說實話, 我不是很相信人會改變什麽, 但是他這麽說, 我也隻有這麽聽.
氣氛總算緩和下來, 我也哭累了, 恰好電視上在演American Idol第二名那個人的interview, 於是我們兩個人的注意力都被轉移到那兒去了. 我一看表, 已經7點了, 9點的飛機, 我們該出發了. 結果, Kevin開始"鬧", 象小孩子一樣, "No, you not going anywhere, you stay here, tomorrow I go to work, and you can sleep as much as you want..." "WHAT??? hey... I got a job, and I have to work tomorrow too..." "No... you stay here, you hear me?" "ohhh god, dont be such a baby... ok ok, I will come again, I promise, ok?" 7點半, our 5-year-old boy Kevin, finally got up from the couch, looked at his watch, "SHIT!!! we not gonna make it..." 天啊... 我這回哭都哭不出來了, 我要回家!!! 飛奔下樓, 上車, 直奔高速公路, 限速80的地方他開出130, 這是鬧得哪出兒啊, 我可不想死在衝繩... 8點20分, 趕到機場, 顧不得找停車位, 我一路跑去櫃台check-in, 總算趕上了. Kevin送我到安檢口, I love u, take care, will call u, be good, kisses... blah blah... 我得進去了, 他也得快走, 違章停車被抓到, 又要罰1萬5. 到boarding gate, 正好趕上登機, 2個半小時後, 我終於回到東京, 鬆了一口氣.
第二天, 上班, 眼睛浮腫, 外帶輕度感冒.
周五一到下班時間, 我拎著行李如逃跑一般的竄出辦公室, 直奔機場. 我現在一提坐飛機都害怕, 總是覺得要遲到, 趕不上. 我的飛行旅程不是很愉快, 旁邊的位置上坐了對couple, 從起飛開始, 那個女的就沒停過嘴, 一直在用極高極annoying的聲音講著什麽, 我即便戴著耳機也可以聽到她的聲音. 在我幾乎忍無可忍而要告訴她閉嘴的時候, 她終於停下來, 和她男朋友手牽著手開始睡覺, 我替她男朋友默哀, 都說一個女人等於500隻鴨子, 他找的這個頂5000隻, LOL. 衝繩天氣很差, 下雨, 飛機遲了大概10多分鍾, Kevin早就到了, 等了將近半小時, 一直開著車在機場外麵兜圈, 機場門口是出租車和BUS的專用線, 私人車不可以停. 重逢的喜悅被壞天氣破壞了很多, 我把行李和自己扔進車, 一切很自然, 似乎我們從來沒有分開過一個多月那麽久. 晚飯, 聊天, Kevin said, "its kinda weird that you are here again", "Fine, I could leave if thats werid", "Come on... you know what I mean, I mean it seems that you have never left." That must be my ghost, LOL. 第一個晚上, 一切正常, 重逢, 甜蜜, 無爭執.
周六, 我很早醒來, 天氣似乎還不錯, 至少沒有下雨. 想出去跑步, Kevin嘟囔著, "be careful, there are some guys who would harass jogging girls", 然後把我抱得更緊, 潛台詞是說, stay with me, I dont want you to check out or be checked out by other cute guys, LOL. 一直睡到中午, Kevin餓得無法繼續睡下去了, 這樣的時候他才會起來, 我真的覺得他腦袋裏可能有蟲, 專門讓人昏睡那種. 早餐兼午飯, 然後開車一路向北, 他說要去衝繩島的最北端, 我也不知道那裏有什麽好看的, 反正他開車, 去哪兒我都無所謂. 一路上, 為了放誰的ipod又是一場"撕殺", 我要聽Linkin Park, 他說Linkin Park is gay, 他喜歡的那個hard rock band聽起來就好象噪音, 讓人有種跳下車, 拿刀剁了誰的衝動. Kevin搖頭晃腦的自得其樂, 我白了他一眼, 轉頭看車外的風景. 陰天, 多雲, 遠處海和天幾乎是一種顏色, 沒有分界線, 這種感覺很奇妙. 偶爾太陽會露出一些, 幾縷太陽的光柱照在遠處的海麵上, 在烏雲的背景裏顯得格外耀眼, 好象[GHOST]裏男主角升天堂的那個場麵, 靈魂隨著那些光芒上升... 衝繩島的最北端, 當年衝繩島失守的時候, 很多人在這裏跳崖"自殺", 據說很多是被迫的. 懸崖下麵, 濕冷的礁石, 沉默的海, 陰天讓這裏的風景更加蕭瑟. 散落著幾塊石碑, 我翻譯給Kevin聽, 有的是紀念體育大會的, 有的是紀念曾在衝繩居住過的詩人的, 還有一個是紀念衝繩回歸日本, 在美軍的若幹年占領之後. 當然, 形容占領軍的詞自然不會是褒義詞, Kevin一副很驚奇的表情, 說他以為衝繩人喜歡美國人超過日本本土的人, 我心想, 難道他們會在你麵前講討厭美國人?! 開車回去, 又要兩個小時, 衝繩島還是蠻大的, 夕陽西下, 天空的雲都染成粉紅色, 很美麗. 接下來, 晚飯, 回家, Kevin在陽台上支上躺椅, beers, music(my ipod!!! cos he forgot his ipod in car, LOL), 很愉快的周六夜晚.
周日, 大戰即將爆發. 又是睡, 到了中午, Kevin也不要起來, 總是說"再躺30分鍾", 我餓得幾乎要咬他的鼻子. 去廚房裏轉了一圈, 冰箱裏隻有幾打啤酒, 和tomato juice, 那個"惡心"的東西倒找我錢, 我都不要喝. 最後在我的包裏發現了一袋candy, 拿到臥室, Kevin半閉著眼和我"虎口奪食". 一直這麽耗到下午4點, 他老人家終於覺得該起來了, 估計是他也餓得受不了, 於是, 我們去吃turkish food. 餐廳就在他家附近, 走路不過10分鍾, 他還是要開車, 我真搞不懂, 走幾步就那麽難???!!! 難得外麵沒有下雨, 空氣清爽, 我真受不了一直悶在空調房間和汽車裏, 那種化學清新劑的味道讓我覺得快要抓狂, 我對氣味一向很敏感. 後來和一個朋友講這件事, 朋友是美國長大的德國人, 他說, 這是美國文化的一個部分, 哪怕5分鍾的路程, 也要開車. 這倒是可以解釋為什麽美國人總是在減肥, 卻仍有那麽多大胖子, 都是坐出來的! Kevin雖然現在很fit, 那是得益於他的工作, 在jet上爬上爬下的, 胖了幹不了, 將來等他退居文職, 按他的"拚命吃拚命睡又不走路"的生活習慣, 早晚長成一胖子.
吃過飯, 已經將近6點. 我說我們在海邊散散步, 他說他不喜歡走路, 要回家chilling. By chilling, what he means is that, sitting in front of TV, but not watching, cos he would switch all channels with remote control, and just staring at the TV, with his brain totally blank! I know exactly what he would do, 我覺得我已經忍不住要爆發了. 但是, 我不想吵架, 於是, 在10分鍾之內收拾好東西, 對Kevin說, "alright, can you send me to the airport now? or help me to call a cab? then you can chill as much as you want, I would never bother." "Whats wrong?" 他一臉不解的表情, see, that is the problem, he never knows whats wrong! "Nothing wrong, I just wanna go home, then I can do whatever I wanna do, and you can stay here, do whatever you wanna do, by YOURSELF!" I said. "Ohhh... you really dont like turkish food, do you?" Kevin似乎恍然大悟, 我卻快要暈倒, IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE TURKISH FOOD!!! dumb ass... "There is something you wanna do, but I dont, and I did them for you, but you would never do anything I want. Its always ME who is compromising, and I am exhausted! I cant do this any more... maybe this is not a good idea, we rushing too much, and we dont know each other well enough..." 我忍無可忍, 終於說了出來. Kevin一臉難以置信的表情, "you dont want to see me any more???" "I dont know... I really dont know..." 眼淚再也止不住, 我真的不知道. "I am sorry... but I did something for you, yesterday, I drove to the north cape, its for you, its a long drive, not so fun, but I did it for you..." 我心裏想, 我可從來沒說過我想去那裏, 是你決定的, 但是沒有說出口, I changed to another point, "this morning, how many times I told you that I was starving, that doesnt mean anything to u? do you really care about me?" "Sorry... cos I wasnt so starving yet, I thought we could go to eat when we both starving..." "HA! listen to yourself, you wanna eat only when you starving, then what about me??? you are so self-concentrated!" Kevin被我駁得無話可說, "you are right, I was a bit selfish", "Not a bit! you always think about yourself, you wanna eat, you wanna sleep, you want this, you want that... its always about YOU!" 我一邊哭, 一邊"控訴", Kevin的表情象隻受傷的小狗, 可憐兮兮的看著我, "I am sorry, so sorry... ohhhh, you make me wanna cry too..." 我的指責還沒有完, "And you take all my efforts for granted, never appreciated. you are way too spoiled, I am looking for a life partner, and we should be on the even level, if you want someone who spoils you all the time, go find somebody else, I cant do that." Kevin繼續低頭認錯, "right, maybe I am a bit spoiled, I didnt think how much effort you made, and I will check my schedule, next time I go to tokyo", "nah... what you would do in tokyo? sleep again?" "No, I can clean your room for you..." 這一句讓我破涕為笑, Kevin is good at this, since he was a little boy, screwing things up, then being cute and sweet to make people forgive him. Kevin繼續說, "I will change, might not be able to change right away, but give me some time, weeks, months, I will..." 說實話, 我不是很相信人會改變什麽, 但是他這麽說, 我也隻有這麽聽.
氣氛總算緩和下來, 我也哭累了, 恰好電視上在演American Idol第二名那個人的interview, 於是我們兩個人的注意力都被轉移到那兒去了. 我一看表, 已經7點了, 9點的飛機, 我們該出發了. 結果, Kevin開始"鬧", 象小孩子一樣, "No, you not going anywhere, you stay here, tomorrow I go to work, and you can sleep as much as you want..." "WHAT??? hey... I got a job, and I have to work tomorrow too..." "No... you stay here, you hear me?" "ohhh god, dont be such a baby... ok ok, I will come again, I promise, ok?" 7點半, our 5-year-old boy Kevin, finally got up from the couch, looked at his watch, "SHIT!!! we not gonna make it..." 天啊... 我這回哭都哭不出來了, 我要回家!!! 飛奔下樓, 上車, 直奔高速公路, 限速80的地方他開出130, 這是鬧得哪出兒啊, 我可不想死在衝繩... 8點20分, 趕到機場, 顧不得找停車位, 我一路跑去櫃台check-in, 總算趕上了. Kevin送我到安檢口, I love u, take care, will call u, be good, kisses... blah blah... 我得進去了, 他也得快走, 違章停車被抓到, 又要罰1萬5. 到boarding gate, 正好趕上登機, 2個半小時後, 我終於回到東京, 鬆了一口氣.
第二天, 上班, 眼睛浮腫, 外帶輕度感冒.
喜歡你寫日記的言辭 很過癮的感覺 COOL
我還沒你那麽老,所以記憶力還算不錯...LOL