Lunch

I walked all the way to the other end of the campus to get my favorite Chinese food. After I sat, the first thing I did was to break that little fortune cookie. It read "God looks after you especially." I burst into tears immediately. Yes, that last time I heard him say goodbye to me, I don't think I could possibly make it if I didn't look up to that Cross. My mam mailed me a beautiful crystal cross right in time; she knows that I love those crosses a lot. It has been on my neck since the day I received it, that beautiful crystal shining cross. I don't set my eyes on other men anymore and I am brave to take the challenge. But right now, I don't know what has happened today and I don't know what is going to happen tomorrow. I don't feel like to continue the class and I don't feel I can do it anymore. I wish he will be looked after all the same, and we will get out of this and move on soon. We were talking about I going to his weddings someday, and I was even starting to think what I should say in his wedding and finally I decided I'd better say nothing. I wish we could still say hi to each other no matter what when we meet at work, while at the moment I figured that might be a little difficult. I feel rainbows lost colors today.