talk about love

It turned out that my first gold coin is gonna leave me. Jared, my boyfriend, and I are thinking about giving it to his dad as a gift when he goes back to Taiwan. Trying not to rack my mind for a present to them, we decided that he will take it home. Instantly, I am broke again. However, all the efforts will be paid off one day, not long in the immediate future. I tell myself. Jared and I will meet again, he from Taiwan, me from America, with my family, we all in Chengdu, China. September 15th, his departing day is impending as we are sharing every moment under the same roof. The very idea of his departure sometimes horrifies me: coming back to my home and finding no trace of him, not his smell, his kisses and hugs, only his fish idling in the tank. Oh, God! I will definitely throw the fish away. To our separation, he takes no concern. “We ll be together again. It’s just a matter of time.” He turned his head from watching TV and cast me a dirty look and smile. “Besides, you can turn the camera on around the clock so I don’t need to go to see a movie when I miss you.” “What a cunning idea!” I threw at him a carrot from the kitchen. “Don’t forget. If you don’t earn enough money to marry me, I ll have to advertise myself in the newspaper to get a cut guy.” “Yes, madam,” we both chuckled. He makes me laugh more than anyone in this world. This may due to the fact that I am a typical the-bottle-is-half-empty kind of person and he is just the inversion. “Why don’t you lose some weight and when can you lose some weight? Look, I am really worried that I won’t have any chance to see the real handsome you like you used to in the pictures.” The subject of his overweight and his easy attitude are just such a pain in the butt. “I am just trying to protect you,” he turned innocent, “Do you want me to be surrounded by butterflies and bees once I am handsome again?” “Don’t act like a clown!” I grumped and smirked out of the corner of my mouth. I never actually comprehend the fact that we have been together for so many years. Time just flies and slides quietly between your fingers. Both of us are changing: I have just finished my Master degree and started working now and he will soon finish his school in America and start his family business in Taiwan. Yet, something never changes. Therefore, his balloon-like body, at the same time while it bothers me, who have always been dreaming of having a handsome guy around, never imposes upon me like a nightmare. Except for his wobbly belly in between us, I find him quite complimentary. I hate cooking, he loves it. I am repelled by animal smell, he loves puppies, fish, and ducks. I am retarded with numbers, he is smart with them. I am fast to the extreme of being impetuous, he is slow with thinking about details. By the way, I am only 5’ 2” but he is 5’11”, perfectly satisfying my hunger for height. What will happen next? I don’t know. Sometimes, I thought we may be together because there aren’t many friends in America. He might as well lose weight later. He might change his mind about us later. There is nothing you can change unless changing itself. My investment at the expense of a gold coin may sink deep into the ocean. (Gosh! I am actually comparing love to a business.) But until that time, I will enjoy my days. 6/24/2005 修改 gold fever