大家都來砸：看看我是追求上進，還是腦袋錯亂？

國內高校教師都美國博士，喜歡自由支配時間和少見人。工作後，因為先生也在一個小鎮的大學作faculty, due to duel career family conflict, 我沒有在同一年也找到faculty position, 也不願 到１００ miles 之外的大學早。於是加入staff.

因為機遇加上好的英文和工作能力，我很快生到了到高級經理級，和校長，係主任級打交道。以後有可能再升，也可能就這樣，畢竟作純administrator 的外國人太少。

Please allow me to type in English -- too slow with my Chinese software.

I am absolutely in a good position now: supervise 4 full-timers, salary is higher than most of assistant professors in my field (social science), never short of money to buy work-related things, can travel to anywhere and stay in best hotels, only report to a reasonable boss, etc. However, finally, ,there is a faculty position in my field (social science) in this university. I wanted to apply and have a good feeling to get it due to my publications and teaching and service records.

I think deep down I have a faculty dream. The reason is two fold. First, I am damn good at publishing. I published in all tier A and B journals in my field, and I still publish 2-3 papers each year even it is not expected in my current position. Second, I still like flexible work hours. Now, I can be flexible, but don\'t want to set bad examples for my staff.

我生生說我是身在福中不知福。If I get the position and take it, very likely my pay will be cut. I will struggle with things like terrible politics, pressure for grant, short of travel money, multiple supervisors, occasional nasty students, ect. just like every assistant professor. 他唯一的擔心是我現在的位置高，誰知道以後consolidate就沒有了，不如tenured後的faculty 好。我倒不擔心這個，就是從事和準備了faculty這麽久，終於看到一個機會似的。

請各位指教和砸砸。