a new day

Today i don't want to watch market any more. i want to let myself calm down. I need to review my whole life after i began to play the stock. Acturally, before i jumped into this market, my plan is put some money to do long term investment. Something like eft, mutural fund or big cap stocks. why now most my stocks are so called black horse small stock. To me it does not look like black horse more like junk stock. I gain some from them, but loss more and even quickly. I have already read someone's bad experences on dq. why i will keep do that stupid thing? I know that is because i want to gain more and quickly. Go back, do not touch small one before i really have experence. Wish i can keep my rule this time.