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往事隨風 (w English)

暖冬cool夏 (2021-05-15 04:26:21) 評論 (73)

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當車輛在擁擠的高速上隨著緩緩的車流接上另一條高速時,車道開始通暢無阻,車速也隨之加快。很快,一個從高速公路一側拔地而起的熟悉建築撲入眼簾,醒目的紅色,頂部尖尖的三角在不起眼地轉動著。

這個再熟悉不過的標誌性建築是一個大型的棒球場,我以前無數次經過過。隻是疫情下很少出門,也好久沒走這條道了,這次它的出現卻意外地掀起了我記憶的一角。

我問某人,還記得那一年你帶女兒來這裏看棒球比賽,我公司給的貴賓席票?

某人點點頭回答著,"記得的,好像看過兩次。"

那是2008年金融風暴來臨前的一兩年。公司曾經風光無限,老總有直升機,公司準備上市,旗下還sponsor了球隊,因此員工有幸拿到包廂的票。記得一個員工一次最多可以有兩張票,而我不懂棒球,就讓某人帶著女兒去看。隻記得那時還在上小學抑或是剛剛上初中的女兒看完球,回來興奮地嘰嘰呱呱說著,她和爸爸那天是如何坐在絕佳的位置上一邊欣賞著球賽,一邊不停地吃著有人送過來的chips,drinks等。這或許是她早年的人生中鮮有的一兩次被當作貴賓似接待的moments。而這樣的時光隨著金融風暴,隨著公司的倒閉一起湮滅了。不經意間,十幾年過去了, 女兒已經長大成人,離開了家。。。

"好像還帶她去看過hockey" ,某人看著高速公路另一側的冰球大樓加了一句。

"你好像還帶她去聽過一場現場的演唱會。記得她好像還寫過一篇短文--如何的人擠人,如何被兩邊瘋狂的人群架起來,腳都不能著地,一度感覺要窒息。。。" 我一邊挖著記憶中可憐的一些殘片,一邊補充著。 

那一刻,我們都慶幸能在她的生命中留下了這些除了學習、除了比賽之外值得記憶的閑暇時光,這或許是我們留給她legacy的一部分,珍貴,不可替代。而這一點在過了這麽多年後才深刻意識到。。。

車輛繼續向前,不久又看到自己來美後重新讀書的校園。靠近高速公路的那一側校園在搭建著parking building, 而我腦海裏湧動著更多的是那一個個夜晚,某人開車送我去上學,下課後再開車把我接回家的一幕幕。那時的我不會開車,後來學車又出了狀況,因此某人不讓我開車,寧願一趟趟地送一趟趟地接,期間也搭去同一個學校上學的鄰居的車。就這樣一送一接兩年多,晚上七點左右的課,下課十點左右,去的路上高速永遠很堵,回來的路上天總是黑漆漆的,而每次接送,女兒都坐在後座的car seat上。。。還有周六一大早,某人送我去另一個local college補修數學課,一修一上午,下課後,又是他帶著女兒來接,有時手裏還拎著買的盒飯。。。

那些曾經沒有身份,一家人拮據過日子的時光遠去了,而每每想起,又會觸動淚腺,想著如果能給女兒更好的童年,更多美好的記憶該有多好,而今條件好了,孩子卻大了,我們自己也老了。

 

那一日爬了那裏一個regional park的山。疫情下很少去這樣的park, parking fee 不知何時起從$5漲到$7。

公園裏盛開的玫瑰。

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

從山頂俯瞰遠處的城市

 

山中喧鬧的野花

 

 

爬時感覺有六十度的坡

回望六十度的山坡

 

山中依稀可見的野花

 

下山途中碰見的幸福的狗狗:

If it were not for a certain Chinese medicine said to be helpful for the gallbladder, we would not be driving northbound to a city more than thirty minutes away, a city we haven’t been to for years. The traffic on the freeway was bad, more crowded than what I remember on a regular pre-pandemic Saturday. The scenes on both sides of freeway do not seem to change much:  bare and dull California mountains in the distance, low residential homes below, and tall commercial buildings by the freeway.   Amid neatly trimmed towering palm trees are some prominent company logos, standing there invariably for more than a decade now. Blue jacarandas are in full bloom, and their violet-colored flowers are dazzling in the sun. Then a red giant erected A- shaped billboard came to my sight, triggering a reminiscence of the time when with the two suite tickets from my company, he and our daughter went to watch a baseball game here. I remembered a young and excited face after the game. She must have had a good time watching balls flying in front of her, cheering with the crowds, while sitting in a shaded suite with snacks and drinks being served continuously.

He chimed in, saying that they watched a hockey game together possibly in a stadium across the freeway. And a live concert he took her to, where the wildly roaring audience almost squeezed her short of breath, and for a time her feet were off the ground…

I don’t know how much she remembers, and how she looks upon her past 18 years living with us. We lived a thrifty life in the first decade, struggling with our legal status and financials. And like any Chinese mom, I pushed her at both curricular and extracurricular activities, stripping her much of the spare time. But even so, life then was still punctuated with many happy hours,  

More memories flooded in, and tears started welling up in my eyes as we drove by the familiar campus, where I studied for more than two years for a degree. Unable to drive, I was chauffeured by him three nights a week to and fro, with our little daughter sitting in the back in her car seat…..

Soon we arrived at the destination, and we decided to visit a regional park first before shopping for the medicine. Like any southern CA valleys and mountains, the trails are dusty and gravelly, but we were rewarded with a bird’s view of the city after a sweating and laborious ascent of the 60 degree slope to the top. The cities spread in front of us, swaths of white-roofed buildings mixed with orange- roofed homes. Some May flowers linger in the heat while most are seeding and withering. We hiked more than 11000 steps that day.