gosh, you don't know how much lighter I feel right now. Joy and peace are all at once.
This experience let me know how wonderful it is to let it out, it is the beginning of the healing process.
We, Chinese , especially myself tend to be so seriously holding onto things inside. Sharing the inner thoughts here helps, but it is mostly important to share with the person being involved. They can really provide the support you need if it is the right person. Wolf is that person.
I wrote in my email last night:
I feel so calm while typing this email as if you were a good old friend of mine
you can be 崩潰, but the outcome is I am being completely healed and moved on. If that makes you 崩潰, I am sorry for you too.
