I understand what you meant by having a humiliating moment to force myself to move on. The reason it was so hard to move on is because I am hoping to have shared a special moment with someone special in my life. I wanted to have a treasured memory of falling in love with someone who also loves me back. Doing what you have suggested just completely killed the very last fantasy/hope I have. It is too cruel.
This is why every day I tell myself repeatedly:
He had never liked me. He does not like me. He will never like me.
I’d rather say this to myself than to have Wolf telling me that like the “cool guy”did.
