There are so many things you can do besides cooking and eating.
Btw, it's not necessary to make a choice between staying at home or going to work. Because you can do both!
I did both myself. I stayed at home for my three children for ten years, now I work fulltime at an elementary school
as a teacher. So yes, you don't need to think you have only one way of living as a mother, a woman or a human being.
There are many years for you to choose what to do next, and next.