另外

把時間花在研究中國問題，得不償失。
因為那是backwards. 誰會去研究非洲部落的思想/習俗呢？極少一部分拿了政府補助的學者。

i could not stop thinkink about China like you, just because i was grew up there. i got to make it clear. now it is clear to me. so it is done. it passed away. but i know a lot of people like you would repeat my wondering.
so what? i help you just like help myself.