You are very welcome~.
I liked your paragraph about catepillar and butterfly a lot. Nobody chooses to have pain and heartbreak, but still some may have to go through the (often painful) change for more than once in life. If one manages to keep her spirit alive and emerge from it as a butterfly (instead of an increasingly bitter catepillar~~~) I believe she'll eventually become a very attarctive butterfly.
I have always find music helpful when I am down, and I hope it will do the same thing for you. Again I wish you all the best, and hope you get over this hard phase soon.