The devil is your implicit, but persistent, desire to be your own boss. It is harmful, and one major obstacle for you to achieve your goal. You should have faith on your tutor once you determined he/she is the best match for you. You should be confident that he/she will take care of all this for you. You tell yourself of this everyday. All you need to do is think like a pupil and practice like a pupil. Yes. I am blunt but I tell the truth.