小成坐在沙發上專心致誌地看電視,小挪歪在他旁邊,懷裏抱著跟她形影不離的心愛貓咪。小挪百無聊賴地用手指卷著她長長的頭發, 看了一眼小成:“不是答應我開車去海邊的嗎?”
小成往電視機前湊了湊身子:“我也不知道球賽臨時改成今天了啊。”
小挪揪了揪自己的頭發:“可是你答應過我的,說話老不算數。” 貓咪在她懷裏嗖地直起身子,瞪著無辜的綠色大眼睛來回打量。
小成皺了下眉:“我也不想這樣啊。趕明去不就成了。”
小挪站起身,拽過被小成壓住的裙角,抱著貓咪走進廚房。乒乓一聲響。
小成沒動窩, 伸手把音量按大。乒乓又一聲響,綠色的音量格相應往上跳。反複幾次,小成終於失去耐心,從沙發上跳起來。
廚房裏小挪披著亂蓬蓬的頭發,聳著肩膀站在在洗碗池邊,綠色長裙拖在地上,浸在一窪水裏,旁邊一些碗的碎片。小成氣的交叉了胳膊站在門邊:“又來了!至於嘛,不就晚去一天。”
小挪哽咽著轉過身來:“你為什麽說話總是不算數呢?對我說的話永遠記不住。”她的嘴唇抖抖索索地吸吮著指頭,一滴圓圓的鮮紅血滴掛在纖細的手腕上。
“又是這套。“ 小成一把抓過冰箱上的車鑰匙,“我去朋友家看球了。”
小挪嚎啕大哭起來,光腳踏過碎片,孩子樣地伸出手臂:“別走!別離開我!”
轟然發動的車聲裏,小挪滑坐在地上,裙子象一朵曬蔫了的荷葉,撐著哭的喘不過氣的柔弱花莖。身邊的貓咪急的跳來跳去,爪子撲打著她的裙裾。
若幹天後,小成和小挪在海邊散步。小成攬著她的肩,撫摸著她順順溜溜,直到腰際的長發:“你要是一直這麽乖多好。”
小挪低低嗯了一聲:“可是那就不是我了。”
小成笑著說:“好,就一個月鬧騰一回吧。”
小挪從他的肩上仰起臉:“隻要你答應我別離開我。”
小成又笑:“嗬嗬,以後可不敢隨便答應你事了。”
小挪停住腳步,認真地看著他的眼睛問:“怎麽才能讓你說話算數呢?”
小成把臉埋在小挪的發間, 長長吸了一口芳香的氣息:“喜歡你的長發,用它來換吧。”
若幹天後,小挪送給小成一個精心包裝的禮物盒:“我用這個換你真正的誓言。”小成笑著打開來,一根長長的黑色辮子,打了幾個彎,蛇一樣盤在盒底。小成驚駭地抬起頭,一把抓下小挪戴著的那頂滑稽帽子。小挪沒有動彈,燭光下的大眼睛閃動著熱烈期待的光,青青的頭皮上罩著一圈同樣希望的光輝。小成愣了半天,咬了牙說:“你真是瘋了。”
很久很久以後。頭發長到耳際的小挪丟失了她心愛的貓咪。
小真來的時候,小挪亂七八糟的房間裏,Cranberries的歌聲咬了重重的鼻音在反複回蕩。小挪來回走動著,瞪著失神的眼睛,抓扯著短短的頭發,瘋了一樣自言自語:“貓咪說過不離開我的。他說過的。他答應的。他答應過的啊。”
小真抱住她的時候,覺得貓咪好象就藏在她的體內。她軟軟的骨頭打著抖顫,可是四隻爪子飛揚著,瘋狂踢打著,喊叫著,抓撓著。小真忍著痛把她緊緊箍在懷裏。
小挪累了,倦了,她大大的眼睛閉上,又使著勁地緩緩張開,小真微笑的臉晃在眼前。閉上,再張開,他笑笑的臉還在眼前。
長長的夢魘之後,小挪睜開眼睛,並立刻慌張地四處尋找。還是在小真的懷抱裏。小真柔軟的嘴唇貼上她光滑的前額,細心整理著她短短的頭發:“別怕。我發誓,永不離開。”
"Promises" (Cranberries)
You'd better believe I'm coming
You'd better believe what I say
You'd better hold on to your promises
Because you bet you'll get what you deserve.
She's going to leave him over
She's going take her love away
So much for your eternal vows, well
It does not matter anyway.
Why can't you stay
Here a while
Stay here awhile
Stay with me.
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
All the promises we made
Promises we made
All the meaningless and empty words I broke
Broke broooke
Oh oh oh oh oh
All the promises we broke
Promises we broke
All the meaningless and empty words I spoke
Spoke spooooke
What of all the things that you taught me
What of all the things that you'd say
What of all your prophetic preaching
You're just throwing it all away
Maybe we should burn the house down
Have ourselves another fight
Leave the cobwebs in the closet
'Cause tearing them out is just not right
Why can't you stay
Here awhile
Stay here awhile
Stay with me
Oh oh oh oh oh
All the promises we made
Promises we made
All the meaningless and empty words I prayed
Prayed praaaayed
Oh oh oh oh oh
All the promises we broke
Promises we broke
All the meaningless and empty words I spoke
Spoke Spooooke
Oh oh oh oh oh
All the promises we made
Promises we made
All the meaningless and empty words I prayed
Prayed praaaayed
Oh oh oh oh oh
All the promises we broke
Promises we broke
All the meaningless and empty words I spoke
Spoke Spooooke
Oh hey oh hey oh hey ...