今天，你會感謝什麽？

剛剛和安東尼•羅賓一起完成了又一個 UPW（Unleash Your Power Within：釋放無限潛力）。

從一名參與者到一名高級領導，我不記得自己到底做過多少次UPW。

我對自己的第一個UPW記憶猶新，就像在昨天發生的一樣。

 

那是 2012 年 7 月 19 日到22 日的周末。

第一晚結束時，我們被要求在一張紙上寫下自己最害怕的事情。我寫的是:“Samuel死了”。意思是如果我的丈夫死了，我的世界就完了。當時我真的信以為真，我會被孤零零地留在這個冰冷的世界裏。

如果沒有孩子，我可以輕而易舉的自殺，結束痛苦。因為我們有了兩個年幼的孩子，所以這個選擇不能實現。作為一個單親媽媽，我將不得不承受無盡的悲傷。

當你讀到這些文字的時候，我能猜到你在想什麽!

天哪，女士!! 你能更獨立一點嗎?!!!

然而，在那個時候的我，恐懼是如此的真實。除了他，我不相信任何人。所以如果他死了，我的生活也就完了。這合乎邏輯的，對吧?

 

現在回想起來，我覺得好笑，這聽起來好傻。

無論發生了什麽，生活都是美好的。現在，不管生活環境如何，我選擇生活在一個充滿活力的美麗狀態中。

 

當我寫下這段日記時，我正和家人航行在大西洋上，慶祝我的50歲生日，在深藍色的大海中練習遊泳。

你猜怎麽了？我生命中的第二大恐懼就是在海裏溺水！

這次旅行恰逢 2020 年感恩節，多麽特別！！

 

當我寫這篇日記時，在問自己：此刻我要感謝什麽?

特別感激我的幸福生活。

是的，生命是一種祝福。

生命除了我們賦予它的意義之外，沒有任何意義。

當我第一次上UPW之前，我給自己的意義是，“我為什麽會出生？我在這裏有什麽意義?”

自那以後，我建立了一個新的信仰係統。

如果那些進入我的生活的人是在扮演某種角色幫助我成長呢?

如果傷害我最深的人是最愛我的人呢?

如果他們如此愛我，以至於願意承擔最醜陋的角色，知道我可能會忘記我們的靈魂契約，在某個時刻恨他們怎麽辦呢?

回顧曾經8年的人生旅程，就像在眼前上演的電影一樣。

今天和每一天，我非常得感謝我的父母，他們為我提供了我這一生很多需要學習的課程。

那麽，如果我們生活的目的隻是需要保持好奇心和成長呢？

 

現在，我不再感到孤獨，而是感到與一切相連。

現在的我知道我的存在有更高的目的。

現在我毫不懷疑的相信，我正在被指引。

自 2012 年那個特殊的日子以來，上帝/宇宙/神聖，無論你如何稱呼他或她，一直為我的生命帶來令人驚喜的靈魂。

上周，通過一位親愛的老朋友，我認識了一位大我幾歲的美麗姐妹。在一次終身成就獎的獲獎感言中，她引用了威廉·亞瑟·沃德（William Arthur Ward）的一首詩，聽著我熱淚盈眶:

生命的奇遇在於學習

人生的目的在於成長

生命的本能在於改變

人生的挑戰在於克服

生命的本質在於關懷

人生的機會在於服務

生命的秘訣在於勇敢

人生的樂趣在於交友

生命的美麗在於給予

 

現在我把這份禮物傳遞給你！

 傳遞給大家滿滿的愛

 

I just completed another UPW (Unleash Your Power Within) with Tony Robbins.

 

From a participant to a senior leader, I don’t remember exactly how many times I have done UPW.

 

I do remember my first UPW as vividly as if it happened yesterday.

 

It was the weekend of July 19 to July 22, 2012.

 

At the end of the first night, we were asked to write our biggest fear on a piece of paper.  What I wrote was: “Samuel dies”.  What I meant was if my husband dies, my world would end.  And I seriously believed it at that time.  I would be left all alone in this cold world.  If we didn’t have kids, I could just easily kill myself and end the pain.  Since we already have two young children, that option would be taken away from me.  I would have to suffer in bottomless grief while being a single parent.

 

I can guess what you are thinking when you are reading these words!  Gosh lady!!  Could you be a little more independent than that?!!!

 

Yet, at that time, the fear was so real to me. I didn’t trust anyone but him.  So if he died, my life would be over too.  That is logical, right?

 

Now looking back, I can laugh at how silly that sounded. 

 

Life is magnificent no matter what happens to us.  Now I choose to live in a beautiful energy rich state regardless of life's circumstances.

 

When you are reading this blog, I will be sailing on the Atlantic ocean with my family to celebrate my 50th birthday and to practice swimming in the deep blue sea.

And guess what?  My 2nd biggest fear in life was drowning in the ocean! 

 

How special that this trip falls on Thanksgiving 2020. 

 

As I am writing this blog, I ask myself:  What am I thankful for, at this moment?

 

I am so thankful for my blessed life. 

 

Yes, life is a blessing. 

 

Life has no meaning except the meaning that we give to it.

 

The meaning that I gave to myself before my first UPW was, “My parents don’t want me.  They hurt me.  Why was I even born?  What is the point of being here?”

 

Since then, I have adopted a new belief system around my childhood experiences.

 

What if people who have come into my life are playing certain roles to help me to grow?

What if the people who have hurt me the most are the ones who love me the most? 

 

What if they love me so much that they are willing to take on the ugliest roles, knowing that I might forget about our contractual soul agreement and hate them at a point?

 

Looking back on the journey that I have been on for the past eight years, it is like a movie unfolding in front of my eyes. 

 

 

Before, I couldn’t look them in their faces (too much pain), but now I enjoy a fabulous genuine loving relationship with both my parents. 

 

Today and every day, I am feeling so grateful to my parents who have gifted so many lessons that I needed to learn in this lifetime. 

 

So what if the purpose of our lives is just to stay curious and grow?

 

Now instead of feeling any loneliness, I feel connected to everything.

Now I know there is a higher purpose for my existence.

Now I have no doubt that I am being guided.

 

Since that special day in 2012, God/Universe/Divine, however you choose to address Him or Her, has been bringing amazing souls into my life.

 

Last week, through a dear old friend, I was introduced to a beautiful sister who is a few years older than me.  During a lifetime achievement award acceptance speech, she quoted a poem by William Arthur Ward, and I got teary-eyed listening to her:

 

“The adventure of life is to learn

The purpose of life is to grow

The nature of life is to change

The challenge of life is to overcome

The essence of life is to care

The opportunity of life to serve

The secret of life is to dare

The spice of life is to befriend

The beauty of life is to give”

 

Now I am passing this gift to you. 

Happy Thanksgiving.

 

Love,

WeiLi