sorry to tell you the truth,

w/ your attitude toward life/difficult situations, you cannot do anything. Hope you are still young and can learn to be a mature man. Remember, if something belongs to you, just take it. If somebody bullies you, try to fight back. If you just act like an underdog, you are an underdog forever. On one hand, I and i believe many friends here have sympathy on you. On the other hand,i have to tell you, i feel shame on you.If you can be so easily scrared, you will be a loser. Sorry to tell you the truth.