I had the same experience before. I could not have enough

sleep every day, sometimes I yelled at my hu*****and" I hope one of you(my hu*****and and the baby) die, my life will be easier." I have the feeling to divorce too.

Hope have someone to take care of the baby, or you pump out the milk, then let your hu*****and to take care of the baby, you could have enough sleep.

My hu*****and do not any more baby, he would rather I kill him than have a new baby.