Don't go back with your husband. Leave him now and then go out to find a man who appreciates you. Even live by yourself, you will have a happier life. I feel you love your husband a lot, right? You build up your life surrounding him. Do you think about yourself? What do you want to do? I feel very sorry for you, but I understand you. Being your self is the main thing you need to do. Think about the dream you have when your were 18 years old, and think about your youth time and think about the love from you parent and other relatives. Now, you are the same person as before. You deserve a better life without your annoying husband. I know the process to recover from the divorce needs time, but you will have a better and free life. You will be happier inside and out.