I can feel your pain. Please be gentle to yourself and rely on your love ones. Give yourself permission to greive for your son. There is no time table to greive for your love ones. Here are some resourses that I hope will help you on your journey. Take care.
Books: They Were Still Born (Personal stories about stillbirth) - By Janel C. Atlas
An Exact Replica of A figment of My Imagination - By Elizabeth McCracken
Empty Cradle, Broken Heart (Surviving the Death of Your Baby) - Deborah L. Davis
Blogs/Websites: - drjoanne.blogspot.com
-stillstandingmag.com (via this website, you could find other bloggers)
Forum: misschildren.org