Very sad to hear the news from your I-20 Reinstatement. I filed the request for my I-20 Reinstatement at the same time as you did, but still waiting for results. I totally understand your current situation and feeling.
If you want to share your experience or want to contact me, please feel free to email me at xg_you@yahoo.com. I'll be glad to offer all the help for you.
Maybe someday I need your help too.
I prey for you and whish best luck to you.